ASYLUM

Panic

*Madison*
I sat backstage and watch the boys do crazy stuff on stage. "And now please welcome the new addition to the MAGCON fam, Madison Reynolds." Matt smiled. My eyes bugged out as I walked out on stage. "This is my sissy" Carter said hugging me. "And she's here to sing for us." Cameron said.  "I never signed up for this." I said. "You have an amazing voice. Just do it." Cameron said. I nodded and took the mic from Nash. I looked at mahogany. "The monster by Eminem" I said and she turned it on.
\skip the song\
The whole crowd went crazy. Johnson rapped Eminem's part as I sang Rihanna's parts. "Okay a little bit of Q&A then we will head back stage for the meet and greet." Mahogany said. All the girls raised their hands. Hayes pointed to a girl with a blue Cameron Dallas hoodie on. "Hi my name is Gracie and I was wondering if any of you guys have a bae or nah" she smiled. Hayes, Matt, and Nash raised their hands. "Omg who is it?" I gasped. "Her name is Bailey and she's joining up when we stop in Charlotte tomorrow." Hayes said. "Her name is Kaity and she's meeting up with me tonight at Starbucks." Matt said. "Her name is Abigail and when we stop in Washington D.C. on Saturday, she'll be meeting us at dinner that night." Nash smiled. "I can't wait to meet them." Gracie said and stepped down from the podium. Cameron point to a girl in a Aaron Carpenter shirt. "Hi my name is Ryan and Cameron why wasn't your hand raised, we all know you and Madison have a thing." She smiled. My eyes fell straight on the floor and stayed there. "What are you talking about?" Cameron asked. "Someone posted a picture of you two in the park. I screen shot it." She said handing her phone to a security guard who hooked it up to a projector so it was on the wall. I looked up at Carter, his face was beet red, he was pissed the fuck off. "Okay well that's enough for today. We'll see you in 15 minutes." Mahogany said as we all walked off stage. I started to walk back upstairs but Carter grabbed my arms. "What the hell were you thinking?" He yelled. "I-I don't know." I stuttered. "Oh don't spout that shit to me. You can't just go off and kiss my best friend. You're my sister." He screamed. "I-I'm sorry." I felt a tear run down my face. "You're not sorry. Sluts are never sorry for their actions. I mean look at you, the shorts, tank top, and the make up. You're just asking to fucked." He said. I nodded and ran off. I heard Matt yelled at Carter asking him what the hell is wrong with? I've dated guys at the asylum and kissed them. 5 guys in the nine years I was there, so you could say I was I slut, whore, hoe, skank; anything you could think of I was. I'm crazy, psycho, insane, unwanted, slutty; no one will ever love me. I ran to my room and into the bathroom. I through open cabinet doors until I found one. A razor. I sliced my arms about 8 times before I stopped. I watched the blood run down my arm. I sat on the cold floor and pulled my knees up to my chest. I didn't cry, I just looked straight ahead. I figured in about an hour the boys would be back soon and I would have to explain why I had blood running down my arms so I washed the blood off and got back in my previous position. This time I did cry, but not because I was sad, but because I was confused on why carter would call me that. Nurse Callaway would always tell me if I said something mean to another patient "if you have nothing nice to say don't say anything at all". I missed nurse Callaway. I'm also very happy to be out of the hell on a foundation.
\1 hour later\
I heard several knocks on the door but I didn't answer. Finally they busted in and I felt someone grab me in their arms. I'm assuming Matt or Cameron. "Madison listen to me. Are you okay?" Cameron's voice rang. I slightly nodded. "You're sleeping in here tonight." Matt said. I nodded and got up. I walked to my room not even looking at Carter who was on his phone. I grabbed my stuff and went back over to Cameron's room. I changed and climbed in Cameron's bed as he wrapped his arms around my waist. I turned around and snuggles into his chest. "I will never let anyone hurt you." Was all I heard before I fell asleep.
\the next morning\
I woke up next to Cameron and smiled at the thought of him protecting me. I like Cameron a lot, it's not just puppy love. I truly love him. "Madison. Are you awake?" Matt whispered. "Yeah." I whispered back. "Ok wanna go get Starbucks." He asked. I nodded my head and got dressed. I got a grey t-shirt with a plaid red, black, and grey flannel, black leggings and white converses. I put my hair in a messy bun and left with Matt. "About what Carter said yesterday, none of its true. You're not a slut. He was just mad that Cameron kissed you. Believe me Cameron got an ear full as well as you did." He said. I nodded my head and thought if I should show his my cuts from last night. "Matt, I have to show you something." I said pulling up my sleeves. His eyes started to water. He pulled me into a tight hug and cried, sobbed is a better way to put it. "Please don't do this ever again." He cried. "I won't." I cried. "If you ever feel the need to do this again come find me. Well get through this together." He sniffled. I nodded and we pulled away. We made our way to Starbucks running into a few fans on the way. "So when we get back to you wanna make a YouTube video?" Matt asked. "Yeah sure, can we make it on my channel though? I don't have anything on there yet." I said. "Of course." I heard his phone buzz. "Kaity's on her way here now since I had to cancel last night because you needed me and best friends come before girlfriends/boyfriends." He smiled. "Yay I can't wait to meet her. How old is she?" I asked. "She's 15. She lives in LA near Nash." He said. "Cool does she know Nash and Hayes' girlfriends?" I asked. "Actually yes. They grew up in the same town back in Virginia." He said. I nodded and turned around when I heard the bell ring signaling that the door just opened. "That's her." Matt smiled. He waved his hand and she came over. "Hi I'm Kaitlyn but you can call me Kaity." She smiled. "I'm Madison" I smiled. We sat there and talked for hours until I got a text message from Cameron asking where I was. I left Matt and Kaity and went to the hotel. I went into Cameron's hotel room and saw Carter. I took one look at him and went into the bathroom. I sat in the floor and pulled my knees up to my chest and rocked back and forth. I was having a panic attack. I got those a lot when I was still in the asylum. I felt the tears start to roll down my cheeks, my breathing got heavy then really short. My head felt like it was about to fall off. I closed my eyes and said little things that the nurses would say to try and calm me down. Nothing was working. I pulled out my phone and called Matt.
E- Matt M- Me
M- M-Matt I'm having a p-panic attack
E- okay just calm down I'm in the lobby now. I'm coming up.
~the line went dead~
The next thing I know the bathroom door busts open and Matt barges in. He picks me up and lays me on a soft surface. I'm guess a bed. I saw Cameron's face but not Carter's, that's when I blacked out.