We were sitting in a really fancy restaurant in the middle of the city and I was staring out the window at the fast pace life in front of me listening to Abby, Finn, and Jack talking about a band that was going to play soon.
We were sitting there for 15 minutes with drinks in front of us and our food on the way, for at least 11 minutes of it I have been looking out the window watching all the people pass before me, wondering if they are as in much pain as I am but if they are just a lot better at hiding it than I am… My conclusion was yes because there is not one person in the world who is or was hurt by someone or something, everyone just has their own way of hiding it, crappy or not. We all hurt, some more than others.
“Alexis?” I turned towards the others to see them all looking at me, I don’t know who called me but I said “Yes?”
“Are you okay?” Abby asked eyeing me carefully.
“Yeah, I’m fine.” I lied.
She gave me a small smile and turned back towards Finn, I know she knew I was lying but she wasn’t going to force anything. So I looked back out the window and when I did I saw a couple walk by holding hands, they looked so happy and lively. I felt tears surface and I put my head down and turned away from the window. I looked up to see Abby and Finn talking closely and they looked so happy together, when I turned towards Jack I was surprised to see him staring at me. A small smile played on his lips and I felt myself blush. “You look beautiful” He said and I put my head down to hide my smile. I heard someone clear there throat and I looked up to see a band on stage, but it wasn’t your normal band. It was one that you see at fancy restaurants. There was a piano, cello, violinist, and some other stuff but it looked really fancy.
When they started playing I feel like I got sucked in, I put my head on my hand and watched all the people play their instruments and I watched all the people pile onto the dance floor slow dancing to the music, including Finn and Abby. She put her head on his shoulder and he rested his head on hers and I saw him kiss the top of her head. It was so cute I almost wanted to cry.
I looked over to see Jack looking at them also and he looked a bit sad. I felt bad but at the same time I was supposed to be angry with him, wasn’t I?
“Want to dance?” I asked out of nowhere, not sure what I was doing but I did it.
He looked over at me with shock but then his face softened and he stood up and held his hand out, “Of course.”
As I stood I felt my scars rub against my dress and I tried my best to hide the pain. I quickly shuffled my dress down my legs and grabbed his hand. We walked out to the dance floor and we started dancing. I rested my head on his shoulder and I felt him kiss my forehead. I felt safe and secure. I felt like the world disappeared for a little while, like it was just us.
“I’m sorry.” I heard him whisper, I looked up into his eyes and I saw pain in them. I cupped his face with my hand and gave him a small smile, “I am too”
We danced for a little while longer then we went back to the table to eat. Finn and Abby joined us after they noticed we were eating.
“This looks so good.” Abby said sitting down to her food. We all ordered really fancy stuff that none of us could pronounce and when we ordered we all had to point at what we wanted.
We all ate and talked about the newest movies coming out, a new video Jack and Finn were going to do, and when we were going on my mom’s talk show.
“Yeah, we are leaving at like 6:30 tomorrow morning and won’t be back till like 3 in the afternoon, maybe later because she always has stuff going on after words but I don’t know.” I said whilst pushing my empty plate to the side. I took a drink and Abby said “Yeah and I am so excited! I heard there are going to be some awesome people on tomorrow and it should be fun!” She giggled. I gave her a smile and she smiled back. She was so funny, she got excited over the smallest things but that’s what makes life great, right?
After 15 more minutes of talking small talk we finally left and went down to the park by the hotel to take a walk.
Abby and I were in the middle holding hands whilst Jack and Finn were on the sides of us holding our hands.
Abby and I were singing little tunes and busting out in Disney songs when I looked up and saw a playground with a set of swings. “Abby, swing set.” Was all I had to say, we locked eyes and ran for the swing set, of course we had to stop midway quickly grab our shoes off our feet then we continued running.
Abby and I collided with the swings sending us up in the air on our stomachs and down with us both saying “Weeee” We got off and sat on the swings and started twirling our swings up and when they were tight and untwirlable we let go and went spinning. We span and span and span until we could spin no more. When we finally stopped Abby and I were laughing so hard we almost fell off the swing. When I looked up Jack and Finn were laughing with us. When I went to get up though I fell over because I was still so dizzy, I started laughing again but this time no one else was but Abby. When I looked over to Jack and Finn I saw them looking at my legs. When I looked down I saw my dress went above my cuts almost to my underwear. I quickly shot up and pulled my dress down, I looked over to Jack and Finn and they were still staring at me with these eyes, these ‘I can’t believe this’ eyes.
I turned around to Abby and she moved from the swing to right next to me but she wasn’t staring at me, she was glaring at the boys. I grabbed her hand and squeezed it. She looked down at my hand then up at me and I gave her a small smile, “It’s okay.” I chocked.
I looked over at Jack and said “I guess we should talk.”
