Snowbaz Poem: Never Stood a Chance

Never Stood a Chance

Year 1:

i thought it would be easy to hate him

he didn't know what he was doing

he always charged forward anyways

he was always saying more and always saying yes

(i was told the answer is always no)

he was too much for me

i'd never known someone so willing to smile

Year 2:

some part of me hoped he wouldn't come back to school

that i'd never have to see those ridiculous curls again

(but there he was)

he made it so easy to hate him

and i was already a monster

(i never hated him)

Year 3:

he was going to kill me someday

and who was i to say that was wrong?

somebody has to

why not him?

Year 4:

i didn't even want to look at him

(leave me alone leave me alone)

no

the problem was

i did

Year 5:

he thought i was a monster

(he was correct)

i couldn't let myself make myself kill him

not without losing myself

(not that i liked myself)

(not that i liked him)

(not that i

)

this was supposed to be easy

Year 6:

every part of me hoped he wouldn't come back to school

every part of me was glad when he was already in our room

(tense. he didn't trust me. good. neither did i)

i didn't sleep once all year

hopeless. lost. gone. empty. i was

not worth this

Year 7:

everything was escalating

someday turned into soon

i had to kill him soon

he had to kill me soon

(i would kill him never)

(he would marry her soon)

(he would forget even how much he hated me)

Year 8:

more than ever now i knew i couldn't survive this

simon snow, the chosen one, the savior, the hero

i never stood a chance

i'm far too flammable not to get burned

Year 8:

simon snow, simon snow

i never stood a chance