IMPORTANT READ: THIS IS DIRTY SO IF YOU ARE NOT INTO THAT TYPE OF THING PLEASE SKIP OVER IT. but anyways keep voting lovelies! <3
It's been a few weeks since me and Kylo's big talk. I didn't want to rush anything but I'm eager to get started. Not only have I never 'been' with him in that way but I've never been with anyone. Kylo is the first man I have ever loved and I'm excited to finally give myself to him. He makes me feel some type of way that I can't even begin to describe to anyone. A knock on the door disturbed me out of my thoughts. I made my way to the door, swinging it open.
Casie one of my good friends stood there smiling. I let her in, silence over taking me.
"You okay? You look like you've seen a ghost." she said laughing.
I nodded, "Yeah I'm fine, I just... somethings been bugging me and I needed to talk to someone"
"Okay.. well whats going on?" She asked, slightly concerned. I sat on the edge of the bed and she sat across from me, waiting for me to answer.
"Well.. I want a baby. Me and Kylo decided we were going to have a baby."
"I don't see the problem, that's great news! Isn't it?"
"Yeah it is, but this talk was a few weeks ago and he hasn't even touched me" I complained.
"Ohhh, maybe he's scared. I mean it's gonna be your first time and he probably wants to make it as good as it can be" She said. I thought about it for a second, maybe she's right. Kylo has always been really protective and careful around me.
I nodded my head, "Okay, you're probably right."
She gave me another smile and got up from her spot on the bed, "If you need anything else you know where to find me" I smiled back.
"Thank you" I said, she nodded walking out and shutting the door behind her.
Kylo has been gone a few hours and should be home soon, I decided to make myself a sandwich and watch a movie. I took a glance outside and the snowy area was slowly getting darker. Usually he is home by now. I sighed getting up and putting my plate in the sink. I walked out of the room and one of the storm troopers walked by.
"Hey!" I called out to him. He turned around immediately, looking in my direction.
"Yes miss?"
"Have you seen Kylo anywhere?" I asked.
"Yes ma'am, he's in the training room"
"Okay, Thank you" I said, turning around and walking off towards the training room. I peaked in through the window and sure enough there he was. He had papers sprawled out all over a table. Him and Hux were bent over looking at all the different maps. I knocked softly on the door, the both of them turning around to look at me.
"Hey, When you coming home?" I asked, looking at Kylo.
"Soon" he answered blankly, turning back to all the papers. Hux looked at his watch and shook his head.
"I'm gonna turn in for the night. You got the rest of this?" He asked Kylo. I watched as Kylo nodded and Hux walked off to go to his room. I walked into the room and placed a hand on his back. I felt all his muscles tense underneath all his clothing. I sighed and let my hand fall from its place, crossing my arms across my chest.
"I haven't seen much of you lately.." I whispered.
"I've been busy"
"You were never to busy for me before" I said. He looked over at me, leaning up against the table.
"I'm sorry. Okay? I've just been busy with stuff" he said impatiently. I nodded, not believing a single word coming out of his mouth. I recall the conversation I had not to long ago with Casie.
"You're avoiding me Kylo, you and I both know this" he didn't respond so I pressed on. "If this is about the conversation we had not to long ago, there's no pressure. I don't want this to change anything between us. If you don't want to the-" He cut me off.
"I do want to I just..." he trailed off, averting his eyes from me.
"Just you're scared?" I asked. He reached up and removed his helmet.
"Yeah, I'm scared... scared of hurting you" he said, pain filling his brown eyes.
A soft smile appeared on my lips, "You won't hurt me, I promise"
He sighed and grabbed my face, kissing me. I moved my lips against his, missing his touch. He wrapped his arms around my waist and I brought my hands up caressing his cheeks. He pulled away leaning his forehead on mine.
"I've missed your lips against mine" I whispered, he smiled and pressed his lips against mine again, guiding me to the wall behind me. My back is pressed up against the wall, he lifted my legs to wrap around his waist. I bit his lower lip slightly, and he pulled away for a split second.
"I think we should take this to the bedroom" he whispered in my ear and I couldn't help the excitement running through my veins. Finally, I get to give myself away to the man I love. I smiled and nodded my head.
He snatched his helmet off the table and shut the lights off, shutting the door behind him and we walked to our room. He opened the door and as soon as it shut, he threw his helmet on the floor, shoving me up against the door, lips attacking mine. I kissed back, grabbing at the end of his shirt. Yanking it over his head.
He lifted me up, carrying me to the bed. He laid me down and stripped off his pants. I yanked my tank top over my head, throwing it to the floor. He looked at me and I felt myself grow embarrassed, cheeks turning pink. He crawled between my legs, cupping my cheek.
"You're beautiful" he whispered kissing from my jaw and down my neck.
He came up to my lips, kissing me again before tugging my shorts and panties to the ground. He slipped his boxers off, kicking them to the side. I couldn't help the butterflies in my stomach as I processed what was just about to happen. I felt him position himself against me and I looked up into his eyes. I nodded giving him access to move. Slowly he pushed in and I squeezed my eyes shut, slight pain setting my stomach on fire.
Kylo caressed my cheek and kissed my lips before moving again the pain subsiding and turning to pure bliss. Soon we were becoming one and I could feel the love radiating off of him. I couldn't help but be completely happy. I've never felt so close to him before and I couldn't help but realize that I am completely in love with Kylo Ren.
Okay so this was kinda cute/kinda dirty but I hope you all like it! Sorry if it sucks :/
