I sat in the chair, hunched over, my head hung low. Tears still streaming down my cheeks. As all the current events replayed over and over in my mind. The flashbacks, the memories making there way through my mind in a agonizing painful sensation, breaking my heart all over again. My best friend, killed. All my companions and friends, dead. All because of one man who claimed to want me on his side. 'I could be useful and an alliance to the first order.' as Kylo would put it. I couldn't help but wish Ben was here with me, to tell me everything is alright and that I will be okay. Ben disappeared months ago, leaving me alone to train with Luke and the other Jedi's. I've finally come to conclusion that he is never coming back, I don't feel the force connection we had anymore, I slowly felt it die inside of him. That's how I knew he really was gone.
I was snapped out of my trance when the door opened. Kylo stepped into the room and I instantly felt the connection between us. His mask was enough to send shivers down my spine, I looked up into his mask where I assumed his eyes should be.
"W-why did it have to be me?" I asked, I would rather be dead with Ben then sitting here in this chair.
His dark figure sat in the chair across from me and waited a second before responding.
"I made a promise to someone important." He said, voice faltered because of the mask.
A thought crossed my mind... was he talking about Ben?
I narrowed my eyes at him, "Who?"
"Ben Solo." He said. I shook my head, eyes filling with hot fresh tears. I didn't hide the fact that I was crying. Ben was the love of my life, and he was the biggest loss I have ever had. I stayed silent, trying to hold back my tears as much as I could. He stayed quiet for a second before continuing.
"He made me promise that I would keep you safe, no matter what."
Sounds like my Ben, always looking out for me.. I sighed looking away from Kylo's tall figure.
"Okay" I said.
"Okay?" Kylo asked, confused.
"I'll join you, I'll do whatever you need me too."
If Ben left me in the hands of Kylo then he must be trustworthy. Ben wouldn't dream of seeing me hurt and he wouldn't leave me in the hands of someone he didn't think would be able to do so. Kylo nodded his head.
"Very well." And he hit a switch, my shackles popping off. I stood up and Kylo reached his hands out, helping me out of the chair. An immediate spark shot through me, the feeling of his hands on mine was relaxing, something I haven't felt sense Ben left. I pulled my hands away from him and wiped my face free of tears. My long hair swayed back and forth as I followed Kylo out of the room. He walked fast but proper, confident and strong. I couldn't help the curiosity of what was behind that mask of his, an old man? young man? Robot?
Kylo stopped outside of a door and punched in a code, the door opened showing us inside. I walked in after Kylo.
"Is this your room?" I asked. Kylo shook his head.
"No, this is your room."
"Oh" I said, looking around at the king sized bed, dresser and other furniture in the room.
"You don't want to have a separate room?" He asked.
"It's not that, it's just I thought I would be staying with you because you're the only one I trust and know around here.." I said rubbing my hand up and down my arm.
"You'll be okay, my room is right beside yours. If you need anything I will be there. And stay out of trouble please, I don't want to have to finish what I started." He said walking past me and out the door, shutting it behind him. I sighed, looking around the room. I decided to open the door next to my night stand and it was a bathroom, fancy. I didn't know I had my own bathroom, I thought to myself. A shower sounds nice, I started the shower and walked to the dresser opening up one of the sides and grabbing out a pair of black leggings and a white v neck long sleeve shirt. I walked back into the bathroom and stepping into the shower.
10 days later *****
Another day of being stuck in my room. Nothing to do, I haven't been able to really go out and do anything because Kylo doesn't like me wandering around but he's gonna have to deal because I'm bored out of my mind and what's it gonna hurt, right? I've been training with him a lot lately, and I've been able to block him out of my mind and resist the urge to cry every time he gets into my head.
I walked to the door, opening it and looking outside. Making sure the coast was clear, I strutted down the hall in my black high waisted jeans and black long sleeve crop top, my hair falling down my back in curls. A few stormtroopers walked past and I could feel there gaze on me the whole time. I smirked to myself, loving the affect I have on them. Searching for Kylo everywhere and not finding him was somewhat saddening. I thought for a second, where else could he be? Training room...? Worth the shot, I grew closer and closer to the training room and I could feel his presence, the force running through his veins. In the room stood Kylo, without any of his gear on. No helmet, robes, no lightsaber in his hand. But his shirt was off and his back was facing me. His black hair hung to his shoulders and if I didn't know it was Kylo, I would have thought it was Ben. I've never seen Kylo's face before, he won't let me. He told me 'Nobody ever sees my face and if they do they're privileged' I would always roll my eyes at him, just wanting to see what he looks like.
Because of our force connection, I feel everything he feels and he tensed up immensely. I know he knows I'm here now. I smiled, laughing.
"Jeez, it's just me chill out." I said stepping further into the room.
"Leave." He said, his voice deep and chilling. He sounded deadly.
I rolled my eyes, "Why won't you just let me see you? It's not that hard" I said taking a step towards him.
"If you don't get out right now, I will physically remove you from the room and I don't think you want that." He said.
I gulped, kind of scared. He's never been this way towards me. "What the hell is your problem?" I shouted, getting pissed off.
"JUST GET OUT, (y/n)!!" He shouted. I flinched back at his loud booming voice, he almost sounds like Ben. I could tell that voice from anywhere and slowly the pieces started to come together. The strong force connection, why I can't see his face, the 'promise'. He promised himself that I would never get hurt, to me and himself.
My eyes filled with tears, "Kylo, please turn around." I whispered.
There was a long period of silence, my mind block was down I know he was reading my thoughts and I know he knows that I know the truth. Kylo slowly turned around, head looking down at the ground, his black hair hanging in his face. Slowly he lifted his head, his brown eyes meeting mine. Guilt, regret, sadness and everything in between was filling his eyes, I could see it. Read right through him. I shook my head, at his familiar face tears falling down my cheeks. I thought I would be insanely happy to know that he was alive, but he's not my Ben.
"This is why I didn't want you to know, because you would think that I was a monster. That I'm not your Ben anymore." He said, I closed my eyes tightly, letting more tears fall from my eyes. I opened my eyes, looking up at him and running forward into his arms. I buried my head into his neck, taking in his scent. He looks older, taller but still the same. I pulled away slightly, resting my forehead on his.
"I've missed you... so god damn much." I said, pressing my lips against his.
Okay, I hope you guys like this one! I enjoyed writing it! I'm sorry for taking so long to update, I've been extremely busy :/
