"The most unexpected things happen at the most unexpected times"
Lauren
I smile lightly as I look over the card in my hands. The sleek material slides easily on my hands. I was holding one of the business cards that I'd received last night at the gallery and I had the others spread out across my desk. I place the small card back into the place I took it from and rose from my seat. My thigh hit the bottom of the desk and I flinched.
"Ow," I moaned grasping my knee rubbing at the spot I hit.
I frowned before grabbing my phone from my pocket, I decided that I should probably call Dinah back, since I didn't return her messages last night. I press the phone app and quickly dial her number before pressing the green button. After the phone rings for a while, I get sent to voicemail and I sigh. I call again and on the first ring, Dinah picks up and before I can open my mouth, she begins speaking.
"What Lauren?" Dinah snarls through the phone. I furrow my brows. She seems upset at the moment, and I wonder why. I hope it's not because I didn't return her calls last night, she knew I was busy. Wasn't she expecting me not to answer?
"You okay Dinah?" I ask, "you seem a little bothered." Silence fills the line and I roll my eyes. I walk across my carpeted bedroom towards my bed and I plop onto the soft material. I lay sideways on my queen sized bed and let out a small sigh once I'm comfortable.
"Lauren, you rejected my calls last night." Dinah states.
"Dinah you know I was bus-"
"On purpose," the sound of her voice cuts me off. My eyes widen at her words, how did she know? I was just trying to relax last night.
"I'm sorry Dinah."
"What is this, ignore all your friends just for the sake of your aunt's gallery?" Dinah's voice raises, "Why does it feel like we're drifting apart? You're ignoring my calls and lying to Camila? What is going on with you Lauren? You used to be such a different person," she sighs on the other end of the line.
"Don't forget, this is my career we're talking about! This was a big opportunity for me and I had to do what I needed to take advantage of that. It's super hard to get into the art field especially at such young age, I made a big break. Shouldn't you be happy for me?" I croak out my voice suddenly feeling hoarse. A long silence spreads over the line, and the only thing I can hear is the sound of our breathing mixing together. After what seems like minutes the silence ends.
"I'm happy for you, I really am don't get me wrong on that. I just wish I didn't feel like I was being dropped in the process."
"I-I wouldn't drop you. I guess I didn't know it seemed like that to you." I speak to my best friend in a calm tone.
"Well now you know how I feel."
"Wow that's terrible, I'm sorry."
"If you think that's bad, imagine how Camila feels. I mean I love you and all Laur, but not in the way Camila does."
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After I got off the phone with Dinah earlier, I needed a second to think. Dinah and I hadn't fought much in our six plus years of friendship, but when we did it was always one of those petty fights. Well, until now. Today's fight with Dinah was just so serious, I don't know what to think about it.
I know she's still mad at me, but we're on sort of speaking terms. She seems to feel really strongly about the topic of my career dreams and relationships with people.
Was I wrong though? I was just trying to chase after my dreams, I thought that was a good thing. Yes maybe there have been a few casualties -Camila- but this was all for the best in my mind. Of course there are days when I miss her and wish I didn't ruin things between us, but then I look at my artwork and I know it was worth it. I wasn't given much of a choice, and Dinah knows that. Which is exactly why I don't understand why she's getting on my case about this now. I was given two options, Camila or my career. I couldn't have both, and I made the hard decision to choose my passion and my career over Camila. But that doesn't mean I loved art more than Camila.
