She Doesn't Remember

Chapter 1

Toby's POV

I was just sitting there bend over my head resting on our hands, trying to control my sobs.

I heard a familiar voice say "Toby, I'm so sorry.". I didn't reply, I didn't even bother to lift my head.

Nothing mattered, only her. She was just laying there, attached to a machine to keep her alive.

Emily laid her hand between my shoulder blades, which made me sob even more and she wrapped her arms around my neck "Toby..." is all she managed.

I lifted my head and answered her hug. "Hayden, Joshua?" I murmured "They are at ours, they're fine." she whispered "Ali is with them."

I held onto her tighter "What did you tell them?" I asked, still in a soft murmur. "I told them that mommy was sick and you were taking care of her."

I heard her heartbeat behind me and let Em go, I turned back to her and grabbed her hand.

"Are you hungry?" she asked. "No.". She sighed

"Toby you can't go on like this, you need to eat something"

"I'm just not hungry"

"You've got to stay strong, for Spencer's sake." Em saying her name sneered at the hole in my chest and i wrapped my free hand around my torso, afraid I might fall apart if I didn't.

If been avoiding her name the whole time since the accident, it just hurts too much.

"I'm gonna get you something from the cafeteria." she insisted "Don't bother." I replied.

She left. I laid my hand over her stomach, right where our baby was and rested my head on her chest so I could hear her real heartbeat not her 'monitor-heartbeart'.

I traced small cirkels on her stomach with my thumb. "Babe, come back to me please please please." I didn't notice how exhausted I was until I rested my head back. but I didn't want to fall asleep, if she really was going to, you know, I wanted to spend every time I had left with her awake, thinking about her. But the exhausting took over and the fog yanked me into sleep.

"SPENCE! SPENCER! PLEASE! DON'T LEAVE ME! YOU CAN'T LEAVE ME! YOU PROMISED! FOREVER!! YOU PROMISED ME! FOREVER AND ALWAYS! YOU PROMISED! YOU PROMISED ME!"

"Sir please step aside, there's noting you can do. She's gone." the doctor said "Help in the ICU please Mrs. Cavanaugh didn't make it!" I tumbled to the ground which was suddenly water, no it wasn't water, it was blood. hot, wet, sticky blood.

"Toby? Toby? Hey it's okay it was just a dream." Em's voice snapped me out of the terrible nightmare. "She was gone! She was dead!" I nearly shouted "I know, I know honey but she's not. She right here." I snapped my head back away from Em, and she was there, indeed. I cupped her face and kissed her gently on the lips. "Good afternoon." Doctor O'Neill walked in, I wiped my eyes quickly. "I'm off for the weekend but Dr. Kingston will take over." Dr. Kingston, Dr. Kingston?! Great, I thought sarcastically "Thank you." is all I said. "I'm gonna take a last look at the brain monitor before I go." Dr. O'Neill took the clip board from the bed and walked to the computer thingy. I crossed my fingers, Please, I begged. And my beg was heard. "Whoa! Her brain activity has progressed! By a lot!" the doctor said with and fling of surprise. "Toby! did you hear that?!" Em yelled in happiness. I couldn't speak, I forgot everything, The accident, That I hadn't seen our children for 5 days, The terrible nightmare, The fact Wren was Spencer's new doctor, The hole in my chest, everything. "There's a big possibility she'll wake up this weekend, but.."

I knew it this was to good to be true the hole was back in instant, maybe even bigger than before...

"... we don't know the range of the brain-damage, she probably won't remember the accident." If that was all I thought, it was maybe even better if she didn't remember what happend, and the hole was gone as quick as it came.

"She might also have a bigger memory loss we don't know where it hit, she could remember everything clearly but she also could lose years of memory." I swallowed, I didn't know what to think. "Good afternoon." and with that he left.

Em pulled me in for a hug. "We are gonna get her back." she whispered I could hear she was smiling. "I know.." the tears were streaming down my face now. "I would love to stay, but Ali has Parent-teacher meetings and I have to take care of your children." she says "Tell them i miss them and that I love them." "I will." she laughs. "I love you Em." I whisper "I love you too. I'll see you tomorrow then. Call me if anything changes" she tells me. "I will, now go redeem your wife Mrs. DiLaurentis." I say. "I have a wife!" she says at the I'm-three-weeks-married pleasure. And she left.

I got seated next to Spencer and rested my hand on her stomach. And for the first time since the accident I started talking to her.

Hey guys this is my first fanfiction so please give me feedback, thank you x Zena