Goner |Joshler AU|

chapter 4

tyler's POV

small trigger warning; homophobic slurs at the end.

     we got to the school and immediately I wanted to go home. I hated the first day of school it was always the worst. "alright ty you ready to meet some of my friends?" josh asked and I wanted to say no but I didn't wanna seem like a loser in front of josh. "yea, totally!" I said with a fake enthusiastic smile and nod. I unbuckled my seat belt and felt for the door handle. before I could open my own door josh opened it and helped me out. "thanks." I said slightly blushing and praying he didn't notice it. "anytime tyjo" he said and closed the car door behind me. 'tyjo' I liked the way he said that. it came out smoothly, like he'd said it to me a thousand times before. he handed me my book bag and helped to a table. "I'll be right back okay? give me like 5 minutes to get my friends from the soccer field." the words left his mouth the minute I sat down. I didn't know what to do so I just nodded and smiled.
      I was sitting at the table for what felt like forever. suddenly a rough voice spoke from behind me. a voice I never wanted to hear again "look who it is! Tyler Joseph. the freak of the school! looks like we'll be spending much more time together." andy foley. a giant asshole and the guy who tormented me from 1st grade to 8th grade. I thought he'd moved to a different state and that his tormenting me days were over. "what do you want andy?" I asked softly, my head facing the table. "what's wrong Joseph? can't give a friend a hug?" he asked yanking me out of my seat. "leave me alone andy." I said as calm as I could. of course my voice was slightly shaking. "what was that? I didn't with catch it." he balled the top of my shirt in two fists and brought me close to his face. "leave me alone." the words came out calm just as I wanted them to. where the fuck is josh? he's probably left you for his girlfriend and friends. he probably wanted to get away from the freak of the school. I shuddered. no. josh would never do that to me. he cares, he's a good friend he wouldn't just leave me here. my thoughts were interrupted when I felt something collide with my jaw. instantly I fell and felt my head bang on the side of the seat. I felt like I was
going to pass out. I heard laughing and I felt another fist connect with my jaw. I felt a foot collide with my side and the process repeated for what seemed like forever.
  and then I heard his voice. "what the fuck dude! get off of him now!" i instantly recognised it as joshs voice. only it was meaner and angry. that was the last thing I heard before I slipped into darkness. 
                                                                                                *2 days later*
      "how'd you get josh to finally leave?" I heard a voice ask. mom? I wanted to open my eyes but I didn't want whoever was here to know I was awake. "I had to promise him I would call if he woke up. my poor baby has started blaming himself for tyler getting beat up." Mrs. Dun? were they talking about josh? why were they talking about josh? there was silence, except for the soft beep of a heart monitor. wait a minute, I'm in the hospital. what the fuck happened? "it's not his fault, he only went to get friends for tyler to meet, he didn't know." my mum said. josh was blaming himself for what Andy did to me? no. it wasn't his fault he had no idea who Andy was. "he's lucky that boy's parents didn't want to press charges on him." Mrs.dun said a sad sigh leaving her lips. should I open my eyes? if I did I could ask about josh. I slowly opened my eyes, the bright lights in the room quickly gave me a headache. I quickly brought my hand up over my eyes to stop s much light coming into them. "Tyler? honey? are you awake?" I heard my mum say. her voice laced with slight enthusiasm. I nodded unable to speak. I removed my arm from my face and looked over at my mum and Mrs.dun and smiled.
           "can I get some water?" my voice was hoarse and strained, my throat was raw as though I'd been screaming for hours. my mum nodded and walked out of the room, leaving me with lily. "so how do you feel sweety?" she asked me. at that moment it hit me. my whole body was in pain. my ribs felt like they had been ripped out my body, my face felt like it had been smashed into the ground. and then it hit me. everything that happened up until the moment josh came back and I blacked out. "horrible." I said attempting to shift but the pain was too intense in my side to shift anywhere. "how long have I been out?" I asked as I listened for the sound of her voice. "two days is all." she said. that's not bad. two days isn't too bad. I looked to my left, the direction her voice was coming from.
       "did um.. did anyone come to visit me?" I asked with slight hope she would mention josh to me. "a few people actually. josh, his friends, ashley, mark and your mum and I of course." jøshs friends? why had they come to visit me? they barely even knew me. I guess lily saw I was confused because she went on to say. "josh and his friends brought you some gifts. they felt like they'd caused you to be in the hospital some way." I could hear her let out a small sigh and she moved about the room. then she handed me some candy bars, a few teddy bears as red bull. "they all brought me this?" I asked not knowing what she was going to say. she let out a small laugh and said, "yea they did. would you like me to let josh know you're awake?" she asked and sat on my bed. I felt it dip in when she sat. "is it alright if I call to surprise him that I'm awake?" I asked smiling. she rang josh and handed me her phone.
"hey mum. is everything all right with Tyler? I was planning on going back there soon you know." he sounded like he had just woken up and it sounded hot honestly.
"yea, I'm okay besides the fact that my ribs hurt and my face feels pretty swollen." I said smiling and waiting for his response.
"Tyler!?! oh my god! you're awake! I'm so sorry man I didn't know about andy if I knew I wouldn't have left you! I'm on my way there now!" he said everything so fast I could barely understand him. "calm down josh. I'm fine I swear man if you're gonna come down here don't frickin crash or something." I said smiling. "alright yea ill be careful bye I'll be there in like 5 with Debbie and some friends." and with that he hung up. I handed lily back her phone. "so what'd he say?" she asked her voice now slightly cheery.
"he's on his way here with some friends and um.. Debbie." I said. my smile fading when I said her name. "fantastic! they'll finally get to meet you! the boys have been dying to meet you. josh put out good word for you." she said getting off my bed.
   my mum walked into the room and handed me a cup of water. "thanks mum." I said smiling and drinking the water. you know when they find out you're a fucking faggot they'll hate you. they won't want to be friends with a fag like you.
    no. they wouldn't. they haven't even met me and they're already so nice to me. they won't hate me for being gay. in that moment I decided I was gonna tell josh and his friends that I was gay. I trust them. they already seem like amazing people. they won't and you know they won't. nobody wants to be friends with a gay guy. they'll just always think you're trying to fuck them and they'll drop your sorry ass.
   I let out a soft sigh. maybe he was right. what if they do hate me? what if they already hated me? what if Andy told them I was gay?! fuck no I hope he didn't. I didn't want him to fucking tell josh I was gay. fuck. I started sweating slightly and becoming anxious. I really hope he didn't tell them. I don't need them thinking I'm a freak for two reason. I laid my head back  and closed my eyes hoping that it'll all be okay when I open them.

THIS IS FUCKIN 1505 WORDS NOT INCLUDING THIS AUTHORS NOTE IM PROUD OF MYSELF. I hope you all enjoyed this sorry updates are spotty schools a bitch. but I'll try and make them more frequent.