Goner |Joshler AU|

Chapter 5

it's a new update!! how surprising! enjoy.

tylers POV

TRIGGER WARNING: again, homophobic slurs. so yea.

I woke up to the sound of my heart monitor beeping softly at a steady pace. but there was another sound in the room, barely audible but there. I lied still for a few moment trying to pick apart who was here, and why they were talking so softly.

"no, Debby I'm not leaving here again. what if he wakes up and I miss it again?' one of the voices said. josh? it had to be josh, he was the only person I knew who spoke that softly. was he worried about missing me wake up again? why did debby want him to leave, when he obviously didn't want to leave.

"josh just come on. who cares if you miss him waking up again. you just met the damn kid." debby? the way she spoke was significantly different from how josh spoke. Her voice was louder than josh's voice. but I thought lily said that they all liked me? why does she want josh to leave so desperately?

"can you whisper please? he's sleeping." josh said in a voice so low and soft I barely caught on to what he said.

"and I care. I don't care if I just met him debby, I care about his well being. besides, its part my fault he's even in here in the first place. I feel like I should be here when he wakes up so I can apologize again." he said softly. but slightly louder this time.

"yea, but you heard the kid that beat him up josh. he did it because tyler deserved it. tyler tried hitting on that kid! that's good enough reason to me. I wouldn't want some random fag hitting on you. or some lesbo hitting on me." she said it as though she herself wanted to kill me. with poison on her tongue.

I wanted to do nothing but scream, or cry when she said that. so he had told them. fucking hell. josh knew, all his friends knew. but josh and his friends still wanted to be around me. why? debby so desperately wants josh away from me so why do the rest of them want to be around me? it's probably just sympathy. the minute your out of here they'll drop your sorry ass like the fag loser you are.

it was silent for what felt like centuries, but was probably all of 8 minutes. but then someone actually spoke.

"get out." I honestly would've preferred for josh to yell. but no. his voice was steady but angry. like when someone is honestly done. like they're either gonna explode or cry and you're not sure which they're gonna do. yelling would have been better because then, all his anger would have been gone in that instant. but talking with such a steady voice honestly made me nervous because that meant he's honestly angry. I knew he wouldn't hit debt, but I thought he would punch a hole in a wall or break something.

"what did you just say to me?" she said it like she really didn't understand what he had said to her. not like she was confirming what he had said. much like I've heard my mum speak to my dad.

"I said get out debby. now." there it is again. that steady voice. it honestly made me nervous because I've never really heard some speak like that. more importantly, I never once thought i'd hear josh speak like that. his voice always so soft, I never thought he would be able to speak with such anger in his tone without yelling.

then I heard something different. the sound of a hand hitting something so hard it made me want to cringe. had she just slapped him?

"fine. be with him if you want josh! but as far as I'm now concerned, me and you are no longer a thing!" she yelled so loud and then slammed the door shut. that is when my eyes flew open and I looked around. then realizing I wouldn't be able to see anything.

"josh?" I asked. I wanted to comfort him. since I couldn't see him I couldn't tell if he was crying but I heard a small sniffle.

"hey, don't cry. its alright josh, she's probably upset right now but she'll get over it sooner or later." I said, looking in the direction i heard the sniffle come from.