I'm living with Bangtan for a month now and I really can't handle that I see Namjoon everyday and that I'm falling in love every day more and more, he is just the guy I want to be with.
My acting skills improved a lot in this time and today it's our first shooting day as the break is over for them. I'm so nervous right now that I don't know what I'm doing. Why did I put Jam over Nutella? I exhaled and let my bread on the plate. Jimin looked at me and sobbed"that was the last Jam" he said. I laughed so hard at this, Jimin seems truly to be Jamless(I had too Sorry😂) he pounded and ate his breakfast. When we all finished eating we got ready and went to the Van. As long as we where driving to the set we talked for a while and then they started to sing the know song. It's so dirty but the way they sing it now make me and of course them laugh. I swear I never worked out but since I'm with them I got some abs with all that laughs. We arrived and went inside the building. The manager greeted us so we did the same. He started to explain us the concept of the MV when he finished he asked"any questions?" I answered with a question "yeah, you as I understood there will be an Almost kiss, what is this?" He explained me that it's when you are very close to someone's lips with yours and barely touch the lips from the other person and feeling the breath on each other's lips. I nodded so he knows I understood. Well I don't even wanna imagine how pervert the dance version of them is gonna be.
We got our makeup on and became clothes. We changed and started shooting. I don't appear a lot but it's ok I'm just happy to be here and see them happy. We spend now six hours while shooting. I don't know how they do it. If I where them I would be laying on the floor with breathing problems I'm already exhausted by only watching them doing everything again and again so they can shoot it from different views. Wait if they do everything so often does it mean I have to almost kiss someone? Damn this is gonna be so hot. What am I thinking about? I'm only 18 and never had a boyfriend. Yeah I didn't had one cuz I was closed to myself after the death of my parents and it got better only a year ago and then I didn't had time to look for a boyfriend. The manager nodded to me so I will enter the view where I walk pass the guys and Yoongi , my brother even in the MV finds out that his best friends fell in love with his younger sister. Well I have to say Namjoon's expression looks so realistic he has to be a really good actor. Damn hoe many talents does he have? We repeated this scene for seven times from a different point of view. It's so hard to make exactly the same steps and expressions but I made it. After that we took a break and sat down "so who am I almost kiss at the end?" I asked and Yoongi looked away. He probably feels a little uncomfortable seeing me doing it, he probably imagined it as I didn't do it yet. "Well at the end it's gonna be me but at in the middle you gonna have similar scene with everyone except Suga" Namjoon said. I nodded so he knows I understood. God please help me not to kiss him when this scene comes. I mean his lips, I just wanna kiss them until I can't breath anymore. After ten minutes they continued and soon my first almost kiss scene is coming, with Taehyung. So many girls are gonna hate me for this but it's not my fault, they effort this to me and I accepted , I mean come on every girl would. My scene came and the others went by side as u walk to Taehyung. He pulled me closer to him with his hands on my waist as I put my hands though his hair, we both are getting closer until out lips almost touch each other, we look into each other's eyes. I never noticed he had so beautiful eyes. I hold back a smile and it was easy cuz I felt his hot breath on my lips. I was kind of shocked but didn't list my role. We are like til his for about ten minutes, the same with Seokjin where I never noticed he has so beautiful hands. Then Jungkook followed and I have to agree that he looks so cute and his touch is caring, i felt like I was air in his hands so carefully he touched and pulled me closer. By Hoseok we added a smile in the almost kiss as he would be a person who always makes his girlfriend smile. By Jimin I was kind of shocked, I could never imagine his abs could be so hard. As Jimin would be a naughty boyfriend his hands went down my waist after he placed my hands on his abs. Thank you Jimin you just killed me. Then it was Namjoons turn. He grabbed carefully my hand and kissed it as I stepped towards him while looking into his eyes, his beautiful brown eyes. My heart is beating so fast I can feel the beat in my whole body and even hear it. He bite his lip and glades his hand from my back to my waist. He is touch it's so soft but still the one that I will always remember. Our lips barely touched while feeling each other's breaths. I feel my knees get weak but then I heard the director say "CUT"
