I woke up in the hug if Namjoon. I should get up before he wakes up. I tried to stand up without waking him up but he holding me to tight into his arms. He woke up and looked at me "I can explain" I said and he laughed "Nota I remember, I wanted you to stay here" he said and I smiled too "really?" I answered with a question "of course, I would never lie about something like this" he said calming and yawned. He is so cute but also sexy as hell. After relaxing a little in his hug I looked up to him. " why did you wanted me to stay?" I asked him and he explained that he feels something for me. I asked him what he feels and he said I'm like a younger sister to him. That hurt me, I don't want him to see me as a younger sister. I faked a smile. It was very quiet for a while until he decided to ask me "well since you are here we spend a lot of time together. It's even more than I month now. Two weeks ago we celebrated my birthday and before that Jungkook's birthday. You said jungkook is a few months older than you , that means your birthday coming. When exactly?" He looked at me curious "my birthday is in the end of November" I answered him. He smiled, then we talked for a while and stood up. We went down the stairs. Until I made breakfast for all of us they woke up and started to talk about the stupid things they did yesterday. I served us the breakfast and sat down. I didn't eat a lot since my hunger went to zero after hearing that I'm like a younger sister to him. "Are you key?" Yoongi asked worried , I looked at him and smiled "yeah I'm just not that hungry" I answered and he nodded.
My connection with Yoongi grows every second. I missed so much having my brother next to me. I also doing well with the other members. Jungkook became my best friend , Jin is my personal fashion stylist (I had too) , Hoseok is always there for me if something is wrong and I can trust him. Jimin became my personal trainer as I want to build a better and athletic body, I thought it would be hard but with him it seems and is so easy. For someone who doesn't have jams he explains pretty well, and Namjoon is just a dream that I will never have in reality.
A month passed (a/n: now it's the first days of November ) since than he told me that I'm like a younger sister to him and whatever I try I just can't forget him. We are in the Van as the have a performance today on a variety show. They worked so hard these days again that I don't know how they can still stay on their feet. We arrived and they got their make up done. When they called them out they left me backstage with some other persons who work there. I'm looking at them through the camera. After their introduced their self and played some games they sat down to answer some questions. They was usual questions until the last one came. Everybody answered with no except Namjoon. The question was *are you in love right now?*. Namjoon is in love and it's not me. I looked down and then again to the screen. The MC asked him if he can tell something about her and he nodded happily "I met her a while ago and she stole my heart at the same second my eyes saw her. I fell for her from the first second and when I get to know her better it was clear to me that I want her in my life" he said. I tear came up in my eye but I whipped it fast away. "Does she know?" The MC asked again curious and the other members where looking at him shocked except of Seokjin, it seems that only he knows about it. I exhaled and waited to hear his answer "No, she doesn't know, I had the change to tell her a lot of times but I always was to shy, but I hope when I finally can step over this fear and ask her it won't be to late" he answered and exhaled. I exhaled as well. I didn't knew he can be so sentimental. After that I got lost in thoughts and I don't know what else they did in the show but after a lot of thinking I felt a hand on my shoulder and than back hugged me. "And? Did you enjoyed being here?" Yoongi asked excited, I smiled to him."of course" I answered and stood up from my chair. "I have to go to the toilet but you can go already tithe van" he informed me And I nodded. He went to the toilet as I got in the Van, after five minutes he was back and went into the van too. I was about to sit down when the driver started with result, me falling in Namjoons arms as my lips touched for a second his. I opened wide my eyes and pulled back my head "I'm sorry" I said and stood up "it's not your fault" he said and smiles as he is holding my hand so I won't fall again. I sat on my seat and put my belt on. I smiled back to him. All they way back I complimented them for they great work and without even realizing I started to Fangirl about them. Even if I know them I can't stop Fangirling. Except being their friend and Youngi's sister in also a hug fan who can't control the feelings when they are amazing, but the problem is, they are amazing even when they do literally nothing. It's so hard being a Fangirl. It's generally hard to be in any fandom. ARMY, VIP, EXO-L this is as what I see myself the most. The smiled at me and just let me continue listen to me. After a while Jimin started to Fangirling, for him fanboying over jungkook. Jungkook did not noticed anything as he is listening to his music with his phone and earplugs. After two ours of excitement with Jimin we arrived. We went outside the van and went inside the dorm I was ready to go upstairs when I heard seokjing calling the other members to talk about something. I stepped Carefully toward to the door to listen to their conversation "So Nota's birthday is soon, what are we gonna do for her?" Jin asked. Someone exhaled, I think it was Hoseok "we should make a big party for her. Since she is Yoongi's sister and a very good Friend of us we should do something special. Suga is there something that she always wanted?" Hoseok said. It was quite for a minute " yeah there is a bar here in Seoul she always wanted to visit. Maybe we could go there on her birthday as its on a Saturday." He answered them. I have to sneeze. Damn it not now. I went upstairs in my room and sneezed. That was close. I smiled at the thought that they will do something like this to me. I was not excepting this. I mean I only know them two months. Except Yoongi who I know my whole life. I put my pajamas on and laid on my bed. After thinking what else they could plan for me I fell asleep.
*one week before my birthday*
"Hey Nota would you like to go drink something with me tonight? Just me and you like brother and sister" Yoongi said to me. I accepted his effort with excitement. Since its afternoon I went to get myself ready. When it was 21:00 o'clock I went downstairs. Yoongi dropped his jaw as he saw me "I have such a beautiful sister" he said and admired me. I smiled "I too my look after you" I answered and he laughed. We went to the Ben where the driver let us at a bar. We went inside. Since I know the driver will not be able to pick us up in the morning I won't drink much so I can drive me and Yoongi to the dorm. We ordered and started to sing , rap and dance to the songs who are playing. We went for a few moments outside for fresh air since we are in there for three hours. We sat on the stairs from the bar. I looked at him " I don't wanna loose you. Never" I said. He hugged me "you won't loose me Nota, I will be always there for you. I promise" he said calming and smiled. I smiled as well. "You are important to me Yoongi" I said and leaned on his shoulder. "I know, you are also important to me" he answered and kissed my forehead. We started to talk about how important we are to each other with result both of us tearing up and sitting hugged tightly on the stairs. I whipped his tears away and he did the same to me. After calming down and get out feelings on a normal level we went inside to continue having fun. We danced , we singed, we rapped and we had such a great time like there is no tomorrow. We were just enjoying each other's company. A lot of fans recognized him and took a selca (aka selfie) with him. It makes me so happy to see him happy and it makes him even happier to see me happy so our happiness is very high right now. At one moment I thought I saw Namjoon but it can't be he is at the dorm. Or am I wrong ? Anyway I just continued to have fun with Yoongi until I felt a hand in my shoulder "Annyeonghaseyo " I heard a familiar voice say. It's Namjoon. Did he know we are gonna be here? "Annyeonghaseyo " I answered with Yoongi at the same time. Yoongi asked him why he is hear and Namjoon said he came with Hoseok have some fun and that it's a coincidence that we are in the same bar. We smiled to him and wished him to have fun with J-Hope. after that he went back to Hoseok. Yoongi and I continued having fun.
Now it's almost five in the morning and we went to Namjoon and Hoseok. We told them that we are gonna to leave and that I can drive them home too if they want but the rejected cuz they wanted to stay for a while. We nodded and went outside. Yoongi is drunk, a lot. So he started to walk to the Van I will drive now. Namjoon followed us until outside.I wanted to step toward but he pulled me back to him and kissed me. I kissed back but then stopped him " I thought you see me like a younger sister" I said confused. "I said that cuz I wasn't sure if you want me too, but I couldn't wait anymore. I wanted to kiss you so badly from the beginning and now I did" he said. His lips tasted like alcohol, maybe he is drunk and he doesn't know what he does. I don't want to do something he will not remember tomorrow so I got back from him. "If this is true, say it to me again tomorrow when you are not drunk" I said and started to walk confused to the car. He went inside while looking down. I pulled Yoongi next to me as he was ready to walk into a light pole. He just laughed and said his usual quote *swag* I laughed too and put him into the Van and entered them myself. I started the Van and looked at the street but with every minute that passes I get lost in thoughts cuz of Namjoon's kiss. Did he kissed me because he was drunk or did he really meant it? Damn it I want to k is it now, I can't wait until the next days. I stopped at a traffic light that was red and when it went green I started again. It's raining pretty much as it's November. I bit my lip as I brought back the memory of Namjoon kissing me. Not even a second later I got back to reality from Yoongi's Voice "NOTA WATCH OUT" he said out loud and grabbed my hand ,after that everything went black as I fainted.
