Little things

new drama arises

2 days later

I'm sitting on the tour bus in yoga pants and a tank top on my laptop with my headphones in going through old pictures and scrolling through Facebook when I feel someone wipe tears off my face, I didn't even know I was crying til I look up and see Niall so I pull out my headphones and set my laptop down and sat on his lap curled up to his chest letting my silent tears fall as he whispers in my ear, " what's wrong princess?" I got up and handed him my laptop letting him see my Facebook and my old pictures and what I didn't want him to see was the marks under my bracelets from earlier because of hate. he sees the hate and he scares me because he set my laptop down and storms away...

3 hours later

he comes back and says, "princess why?" I get worried and said, " what do you mean?" he replies," why did you cut yourself?" I look down ashamed he says in a soft voice," babe please answer me." I looked into his bright crystal clueless blue eyes and said, "I've been getting hate since I left my house and I thought this would help my feelings..." niall looks at me with concern and said, "well let me see the cuts, this is never an option. babe please don't do this again." he then pulls out a sharpie and draws a butterfly on my wrist and writes his name under it and kisses each cut. I broke down in tears because I mean that much to him.

later that night

we are all sitting around watching movies when harry looks at his phone and he looks pissed off and throws it at niall and says," fucking read it and don't let Shawna read it." he read it and got highly pissed and said to me," babe stay here me and the boys need to have a meeting." I was confused but I agreed and they all stormed off to another room and niall slammed the door. I jumped at his sudden anger but I sat there and paused the movie when my phone went off so I went to grab it off the table when Liam came rushing out and grabbed it and ran back in the room so I yelled," Liam what the hell it was my dad!" niall yelled out the door, " sorry princess here call him off my phone!" and he tossed me his iPhone when I wanted my iPhone so I just said fuck it and called my dad anyways.

1 hour of talking on the phone with my dad and boys being secretive later...

they finally came out and niall went to hug me then I got up so he couldn't and went to get a bottle of water. he followed me and said," what's wrong princess?" I looked at him and said," babe what the hell are you guys hiding?" he looked at me and said," n-n-nothing." I got angrier and said," don't you dare lie to me." he said , I can't tell you.." I glared and said," fine don't tell me I'm going to bed." and with that I walked away and went to me and nialls bunk. what he doesn't know is that I was crying silently.

the next morning

I woke up and I was curled into niall... damn instincts so I got up and started to get out stuff to make omelets for everyone when niall wrapped his arms and said princess I need to talk to you. I looked at him and said," what about?" he said," last night." I sat down at the table and said," what the hell is going on?" he looked ashamed and said," some people were saying horrible things about you and we were taking care of it." I look at him and said," like what?" his eyes went dark and said," check your Facebook." I did and I got sick to my stomach at what they were saying. it was disgusting and terrible I set my phone on the table and ran to the bathroom and locked the door so no one could get in and I cried silently but then a horrible thought came to my head and my body followed that thought, next thing I know I'm standing in front of the sink with the razor blade I hid from the first time I cut. I did something I shouldn't have done again..... I cleaned up the blood and wounds and I grabbed Niall's hoodie and I wore it. I walked out of the bathroom like nothing happened and I hugged niall like I never have before because him and the boys were just protecting me and I was to dumb to realize it