They saved me, then they broke me...

Chapter 11

Kate's POV-

I woke up the next morning earlier then the boys so Paul could take me to the doctors. After we got off the plane yesterday louis was really quiet. I not even know why? Maybe I shouldn't have asked him, and then he would still love me, that's it. He never really loved me, he just wanted to get into my pants, then when I might be pregnant, he'll run away. My eyes started to well up just thinking about it, so I had to stop thinking about it. We pulled up and before we got out Paul shifted in his seat to talk to me. "Are you sure you don't want me to call louis?" He asked. "No thanks Paul." I slightly smile. "You sure? You might regret it later!" He warned. "It's alright Paul, he has enough on his mind right now. Plus I might not even be pregnant.." I look down at my feet. "But Kate, that's not the point. He asked you out because he likes you, and he wants o be there for you. People do care Kate!" He rubbed my shoulder slightly. I almost forgot Paul knows about my depression, he's the only mine who knows the real me. Liam thinks I go drugged in a cafe, and Louis, Niall, Zayn and Harry think I'm Liam's cousin. Well that got complicated quickly. Suddenly Paul opens my door. "You coming?" He asked, "yeah" he offered me his hand and I took it and laughed. "I'm not a cripple yet, but I'll take help if your offering." I smirked. Paul just rolled his eyes.

"So miss...?" The doctor asked for my last name, "Jackson" you answers. "We'll miss Jackson. I'm Dr. green, we're gonna have to do an ultrasound. Is that alright?" She asked. "Yeah that's fine" I smile back politely. I was now in the room by myself, with the doctor of course. Paul had to wait outside. She squeezed the cold gel on my stomach, and I was seriously cold. I shivered a bit getting a laugh from the doctor, "yeah, it is cold!" She smiled rubbing the strange stick thingy or whatever you call it over the gel. I don't know what I was seeing on the screen, to me it was just blurred lines, but Dr green seemed to be entranced. "Well miss Jackson, good or bad news?" She asked. Well now I'm nervous. "Uh bad first" I reply. "You are indeed pregnant? That is the good and bad news, depending on how you take it" she looked back at the monitor. I walked out and had to tell Paul, "well?" He questioned. I just nodded not being able to speak. After that I sighed myself out, then we left. Sitting in the car it all hit me. I'm actually carrying the baby, that Louis Tomlinson and I made, together. Holy shit, how was I going to tell him?! Then I burst out crying. Paul looked over worried. " Kate what's wrong?" He pulled over on the side of the road. "What if louis doesn't want a baby? What if I don't wont a baby? I can't even look after myself let alone a baby! And then louis will hate me, then I'll have to raise it myself either way, cause he's a fucking pop star who's always on tour and-" Paul cut me off. "Whoa, slow down. I'm sure he'll be delighted! But why wouldn't you want a baby? They're blessings! God doesn't give us what we can't handle..." He sounded so wise. T bad I'm not religious. "Well I don't think I can Paul!" "Kate I know you can! You'll have a lot of people who love and support you!" He argued. But I wasn't giving up that easily. "No Paul, they're in love with what they see. A perfect little innocent girl who got drugged. And Liam payne's cute little cousin. I bet they'd all run away if they knew the truth. Just like everyone else.." I trailed off feeling sick, I open the car door and was sick everywhere. God I hate this morning sickness crap. But Paul's right. Baby's are blessings. I don't deserve such an amazing gift.

Liam's POV-

I was the first to wake up this morning. I walk out to the kitchen of our tour bus. I missed this place. Then louis walked out rubbing his eyes, "hey where's Kate?" He asked, I didn't even notice she was gone, and so was Paul. But almost even worse, there was no food in the kitchen, and Niall would probably wake up soon. God help us all! "I don't know sorry" I replied. He just sat down, maybe I should have a talk. Since I am her 'cousin'. Even though I'm not actually related to her, I feel. Need to be protective of her, I'm the one who found her that first night. I guess I just don't want to see her hurt again. "So Lou, you and Kate. What's been happening?" I ask looking at his sleepy face. "Um, I don't know. Be more specific Liam.." He dragged on still half asleep. "How do you feel about her?" I ask, "I would do anything for her Liam. I know your protective of her, but so am I! I never want to see her hurt, and I really really like her, maybe even love her..." He looks like he's thinking, looking into the distance. Just then the door opened and in walked Paul followed by Kate holding McDonalds bags. Suddenly ther was a loud thud, the out runs Niall. Of course. "I smell Maccas!" He smiles squashing louis I between himself and I. Then out storms an angry Zayn, probably from being woken up, then a tired Harry. "Could you not fall out of bed as hard as you can you little terd!" Zayn snapped at Niall sliding in next to him followed by Harry. Kate sat squished in next to me being really quiet. I looked at her to see her eyes red and puffy, and year stained cheeks. Why has she been crying? I ask myself. Paul leans down and whispers what sounded like 'eat something' in her ear and she nods grabbing a hash brown. Why wouldn't Kate eat? What is going is going here? Where were Kate and Paul just now, and why is Kate sad and not eating?

Kate's POV-

I had two hash browns, then took a bite of the an egg and bacon burger and had to run to the bathroom. A few seconds later someone was rubbing my back and holding my hair out of the way, at this point, I didn't care, they were all going to find out sooner or later. But I was thankful and so happy when I look up to see a sympathetic louis. "I just need to say something okay?" He asked I just nodded and he sat sown in front of me and continued. "I was a real dick yesterday, don't try to argue, because I was. I know it probably looked like I didn't want a baby, but I wouldn't mind. If I had you, I don't care what happens! Because I love you Kate. And I would love to have some children with you whenever your ready" I looked up with tears in my eyes, damn you hormones! "Louis that's so sweet, I love you too, and ah that's good cause I need to tell you something..." I avoid eyes contact. "Anything" heard him speak. "I-. We, are having a baby. That's where I went this morning. Paul is the only one who knows, and now you..." I then look up at him. And he looked kind of shocked, and kind of, happy. "Oh my god are you serious?!" He smiled big. "Yeah" I laughed, tears streaming down my face, in joy and pure bliss. Louis leaned down and placed on hand on my lower back and pulled me into a loving kiss. When he pulled away, he also had tears of joy now. He placed the other hand on my stomach, "hey little baby, it's daddy here. I can't wait to see you!" He smiled wiping away his tears speaking to my stomach. "Should we go tell the others?" He asked helping me up. "Yeah, lets!" He kissed me one more time before we walked out hand in hand, both just getting over the tears and they all looked so confused which caused me to laugh. Paul just smiled knowingly. "Are you guys alright?" Liam asked. The others just still looking confused. I looked at louis, gesturing for him to tell them, it seems he should. They are his band mates after all. "Guys. Kate is pregnant, we're having a baby!" He smiled squeezing my hand. The all looked gob smacked. They're mouths wide open. There was an awkward silence, then they spoke. "Oh my god congratulations!" Liam stood up and hugged us both then bent down to my stomach and gave it a gentle kiss. "Hello" he smiled. I chuckled looking down at him and he stood up. "Be careful yeah!" He hugged me again, "don't worry Liam, I won't let anything happen to her!" Louis smiled. "This is the best news ever! You guys are so cute together!" Niall grabbed louis and I and pulled us together hugging us. "You just couldn't keep it in your pants could ya!" Zayn winked at louis and Zayn was then tackled to the floor, and the were wrestling. I was laughing at how immature they still were, when their was suddenly a hand on my belly. I look up and I'm greeted with a pair of green eyes. "Hi" I mile awkwardly. "Hey" he smiled back, but enough to show his dimples. "Congrats... I'm happy for you" he smiled and rubbed circles. Well this was getting awkward. Then Niall came over, thank god. "What you two talking about?" Niall asked only seeming half interested. "Nothing.." I looked awkwardly at louis and Zayn talking, Zayn's back facing me and louis looking over Zayns shoulder, our eyes met and he smiled, Zayn turned around and saw that it was me louis was staring at. "Dude can you pay attention for five seconds?!" Zayn got impatient pulling Louis into a different room. I softly giggled and tuned back into my own conversation. Then Louis and Zayn walked back in. Louis ran over and embraced me in a hug. "Are you okay?" I ask hugging back, looking at a confused Harry and Niall. "Nothing, I just missed you!" He pulled away and gave me an open mouth kiss. Which I returned. Then I herd an Irish accent whisper "lets leave these two alone!" And then a chuckle from the same voice. "Okay. Louis Kate, stop for a sec, I need to talk!" Paul yelled and I pulled away, and louis grunted. I giggled and dragged him closer to Paul and the others. "So, if the fans hear about this baby, they might try and hurt Kate and the baby. Same with the paps, they wont leave you alone . They can get crazy! So Kate's gonna need some body guards, is that alright Kate?" He looked at me, "yeah of course" I was a bit shocked. I know some of them get a bit psycho, but would they really go that far? I look over at louis, who's expression matches mine. "If it would make you both more comfortable, you two should probably stay together. Which shouldn't be a problem cause its what you do anyway!" He smirked. Thinking of louis with me all the time? Who could refuse that?! "Yes please!" I smile and louis wraps his arms around me, gently placing his hands on my belly. "Even if you said no, I'd still be right by your side." He whispered in my ear and kissed my check.

Later that night, Paul offered for louis and I to sleep his double bed in the tour bus, with a bit of fighting with him, me trying to tell him it was okay, I finally gave in. "Well personally I think this is a great idea. I get to sleep with my favourite girl, and our new baby!'" He smiled finally laying down after brushing his teeth. "I wonder what it looks like at the moment?" I look up at the ceiling with my hands on my stomach rubbing tracing my bellybutton. "Well I know for sure it's going to be an attractive little thing if it has your genes!" he winked pulled me close so I was snuggled up to his chest, with that I fell fast asleep...