I laid awake with Mitch in my arms, I looked to the digital clock in my bedside table.
2:37
I sigh and shake my head, why do I do this to myself? Why am I here laying awake when I could be asleep with the love of my life.
He's here technically, he is warm against my skin, I could hear the short puffs of breath that leave his body, I can feel his steady heartbeat, reminding me he is still alive... That he is still here with me.
He is still here, after all the Bullshit he went through because of my fault, he could have chosen anyone else, but he is still here.
My eyes started to fill with tears as I imagined him being with another boy, I imagined him kissing another boy, making love with another boy, loving another boy... It hurt my heart but when I looked down from my Teary eyes, he was there.
Tears started to spill from my eyes, they rolled down my cheeks as small sobs escaped me.
I slid further down the bed and turned him around, he started shifting until he slightly opened his eyes.
I couldn't stop my sobs and he started to rub his eyes "Scotty?" He yawned and cleared his throat "Are you crying baby?"
He caressed my cheek and wiped my wet cheeks.
"Why are you crying?" He got closer to me and looked in my eyes, my window showed a full moon, illuminating our faces.
"I'm scared of losing you" I said closing my eyes to let more tears fall.
He shook his head "You will never lose me babyboy" he kissed me gently.
"I'm afraid of losing you and for your to leave with another boy, For you to kiss another boy, for you to ma-make love to another boy, for you to love another boy"
I shook my head rapidly as tears fell in abundance now.
"Oh Scotty... Baby" he grabbed my jaw and turned my head to him. I hesitated, and turned my head away whimpering. "Baby, Scotty, my sunshine, my cuddly bear, my everything.. My naughty prince..." I looked at him now whimpering. "I would never leave Scotty, you are my naughty prince... You are the only one who can make love to me every night and I won't get tired of it, you are my sunshine and my everything.. You light up my world like nobody else, you are my sugar lips, I could melt in your lips ! I will never stop loving you, baby you are perfect, baby you are perfect for me"
He wiped my tears and brought our lips together, he ran his tongue over my bottom lip and I parted my lips, our tongues fought for dominance, I let him win since I was exhausted from all my tears.
"It's Three Thirty babe" he whispered against my lips.
"Let's skip tomorrow, it's Friday.. We can stay here Friday, Saturday and Sunday.. Just jere laying down doing nothing" he kissed my neck after saying that.
I nodded and brought him into a cuddling position. "Please promise me you won't ever leave" I said my voice shaking.
"I promise Scotty" he wrapped his arms around my waist looking into my blue eyes.
His chocolate eyes examined my face, i smiled weakly and imagined the future..
Proposing..
Wedding..
Honeymoon..
Kids..
Everything would be perfect if we were together. Nothing could go wrong right?
