The air ran trough my face, chills went down my back and I smiled.
Sitting on the highest point of TreeTop at 3 Am had become an everyday thing for me...
Ever since it happened...
Watching him walk away with Her... HER! That word made me shudder in disgust...
He was gay for me but straight for her? How can that be possible?
I gave him my everything, my first kiss, my purity, I told him everything.... We didn't keep a single secret.
Lottie was there for me since that moment, "I want to try new things" I scoffed
"You want to try vagina?" I rolled my eyes "Hope you like fish!"
Lottie immediately responded "Just remember! If you leave now, you will be gone forever"
He hummed and muttered something under his breath making me incapable of me to hear.
He walked away with his Hand interlocked with hers and my heart in his fist.
I called Connie and told her what had happened.. She bought me a house out of the city, all the way to San Antonio. I told her I wasn't going to be able to live with him after this, that the best she could do was buy me a house out of this place.
For now I was living with Lottie.
We met Alexander Kirk in art and since Scott had the same classes as me, he kept looking at me but I just brushed it off...
It had to look as if it didn't bother me. As if I wasn't dying inside with every kiss she gave him..
It was to much so my only solution was cutting... Deep cuts invaded my arms and skinny thighs.. Soon I had to wear long sleeved shirts....
No one noticed, not even Lottie....
But when she did she went up to him, I hadn't seen him in days, but when I glanced at him, he had dark circles under his eyes, his skin was really pale and his eyes red.
I turned around and saw his Gf kissing another guy.... She must have left him... That's why he looks so devastated.
I scoffed and I felt hands in my shoulders, I looked up to Lottie's gray eyes and her concerned look.
"I don't want to talk to him" was what I said before fixing my bangs.
"You don't have to.. Just listen to him"
I rolled my eyes when he approached and my broken heart broke more at his sight "Hi Mit-Mitchie"
I just hummed in response the sadness taking over.
"I'm sorry for leaving you, you know I"
I cut him off by flipping him off and walking away, Lottie called me out but I was not going to look back.
Tears streamed down my face while I ran to the forest.
I was not going to kill myself! I was going to be strong! Is what i kept repeating to myself everyday
He did a good job breaking me inside. He was sorry for breaking up with me? I wanted to laugh at his face.. Of course he was sorry! He is not straight.. He is way beyond gay.
How could he ever thought of dating a girl? Well of course there was Kirstie but he didn't know he was gay then... But now it's a whole different story...
I have been up this tree for 13 hours... Since I left school, to right now, I looked down at my clock 3:00 Am..
I looked up to see the city before leaning against the tree with my face traced of dry tears.
The air ran trough my face, chills went down my back and I smiled.
