Just Think

Forgiveness

Emotions are the colours of the soul. Spectacular and incredible. They paint your world with the colours of life.

A mind that thinks, yet a heart that doesn't feel. That is existing. You were born to do more, to feel more.... to live.

Your spirit is forever reaching out, seeking to make bonds and you are unable to contain it. Would you want to if you could? Those who have experienced both the light and the dark of life sometimes seek to hide in the shadows, afraid of what they may behold in the light. They have been hurt and now know, that you alone can give someone the power to hurt you. To colour you with fear. To colour you with doubt. To taint the colour of your trust.

Sometimes the dark is just waiting for the light. Sometimes, a shadow is just waiting for a chance to be more.

How long can you seek solace in the shadows? How long can you deny the spreading light? How long till you acknowledge that that light is slowly thawing you, reaching the corners of your heart and allowing the colour of trust to shine through. The colour of hope, no matter how hidden, is never truly gone.

Life is beautiful when you allow yourself to live. Life is not just you and this earth, it is you and the world. The world of people you live with, interact with. The world of strangers. Life doesn't allow you to simply walk by all with not a single glance, it makes you pause and smile, it makes you know and trust. It makes you laugh and cry. It gives you hope and the strength to wipe the tears away. It gives you reason to smile. It gives you time to heal.

Life is about remembrance. Life is about healing the wound, not learning to live with it.

There are few who live life unscathed. If you are not one of these, be one of the few who heal, not those who let wounds scab over. A moment in time, and you'd bleeding pain all over again.

Forgiveness isn't easy. Forgiveness isn't in words, sometimes it's not in actions. Forgiveness is in thoughts.

For he who forgives, forgiveness is not in forgetting. It is in remembering and in understanding that the pain of the past must not hold you back from the promise of tomorrow. Forgiveness is about healing. Forgiveness is about freeing yourself from the echoes of the past. The memories may not fade, but their hold over you will weaken.

To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you.

For he is who is forgiven, for he who has sinned, forgiveness is the first step to healing. Forgiveness is the knowledge that he has the possibility of being unbound from the chains of guilt, but an oath to never forget remorse. An unspoken vow to his soul to not sin, and a resolve to never falter in his steps to the better person he must become. Not under compulsion and not from fear of God, but because of love for his soul, strength for tomorrow, remorse for yesterday and healing for today. 

Bitterness feeds the fire within your soul. That fire may someday burn you.

Life gives you situations, chances to feel the burn of anger. But you're the one who takes it. It's you who takes the red and paints your world with it.

Life is never simple, life never goes one way. There are many paths to go down and finally, it's only you who chooses. If life pushes, stand your ground. It's your will that matters.

Bitterness festers, it grows and finally, it may shroud all your light in darkness. It doesn't kill your soul as it acts, it simply makes it voiceless. One day, when it speaks up, all that will be left is regret. When you finally open your eyes, you may see only ashes on the ground. The worse part is knowing that maybe you had been the fire.

Forgive. Because forgiveness soothes the soul, it calms the raging fire, it staves the future regrets, it saves the present soul. Would you rather live a lifetime burning, or allow yourself a lifetime of living. Would you rather paint your world red, or allow room for other colours to blend? The choice is yours. But is it a choice at all?

Perhaps, in your heart, the choice has been made. Now, you simply have to act on it. Your soul has fire. It can either give warmth and light, or give heat and pain. Don't allow it to shed light on a world full of ashes. Ashes of old memories and future hopes that mingle with the hollow silence of today.

Forgiveness can only be there in your heart when your mind has recognised who it is that seeks it. There are few who live their life blameless. We may be the one at fault sometimes, intentionally or unintentionally. It is only when we acknowledge our mistakes, that the need for forgiveness is born. Why would one need healing when the wound has not yet been felt? It is only when we see the wounds we have given our conscience that we truly begin to deserve forgiveness.

Forgive yourself for what was your doing by rebuilding what you may have crushed. Forgive yourself for believing the worst of yourself. You may not be perfect, but you intend to be the best you can be. Forgive yourself for being the very chain that holds you back.

Forgive yourself for the things you may have done in the past, but seek forgiveness in the right places, in the right ways. Seek to right the wrong you may have done and you have already found the path you must walk. The path to forgiveness. Forgiveness won't be in a moment, it won't be in a blinding flash of glory. The angels won't be singing, but maybe your heart will. Forgiveness is about remembering that you did wrong and knowing that you will do right. Will be right. This isn't your mind forgiving you. This is your soul forgiving itself.

Forgive yourself. Because who truly wants to be an exile in their own life?

If you're hiding in the shadows, afraid to forgive and too guilty to be forgiven, know this. Forgiveness is about healing yourself. It's about giving yourself the ability to hope for the future and smile in the present without shedding tears for the past. Forgiveness isn't a return to the past. It's all right if you're not where you were then, and it's even more all right if you don't want to be. Bonds were made and maybe those bonds frayed. You've healed yourself but you need to know if that bond can be healed, or if you even want it to.

You don't forgive because of memories of a beautiful past. You forgive because of a hope for a beautiful future. If you don't want your past in your future, that is your choice. The past catches up with you at some point, but there are so many more crossroads ahead. Choose the path that calls to you. Even if you're leaving the past behind.

Don't let that choice be dictated by your past. You may not be angry, maybe you're scared and maybe you're running away. Don't. Face it. Move ahead. Calmly. At your pace. And take the path your heart wants to take. Not the one which leads away from yesterday but the one that leads to your chosen tomorrow. 

Every moment is a universe in itself.. It's echoes of the realities that could have been and have now faded into mere illusions and it's the slowly building crescendo of the reality that is slowly building itself on the foundation of your choices. 

To forgive is divine because it is then that you have freed yourself from your chains of guilt, given yourself the wings hope and allowed yourself to fly to heaven. You are ascending into a world where you are the best you can be, and who you want to be.