Survivor

I'd take you whole

I'd take you whole
Flaws and all
I'll be extatic if you'll be mine
I will forever be loyal forever be thine
Even if you won't give back
You'll have my all
To you i willingly surrender my soul
I trust you with my heart
I beg you don't pull the shattered pieces further apart
Take my heart take my all
Please just catch me when i fall
A matter of time
A battle of wills
Before you break me
And the light that you once admired will be no more
I wish you could see yourself through my eyes
Human perfection is what i see
Every time i look at you i drown in those pools of honey
It gets harder to breath with each of your smiles
That isn't directed at me
I'm wild and jealous
Hopeful and rebellious
Craving your presence
By your side i feel weightless
Yet with every glance towards an other
You make me feel worthless
And still at the end of the day i want you more
To hate one's self is a great sin
But what of loving one who will never love what's within?
You made living more than just a chore
And now the darkness you've created in me i abhor
But you'd never see me as more
And you'd never see what's beyond the flesh
You'd never noticed the cold in my gaze
And you chose to ignore the self-hatred i portrayed
Because that's easier than to accept what's behind the front
You never asked and i never told
You wouldn't have understood
Too many demons too many scars
Too many to count and now you'll be gone
Maybe you'll wonder in a few years time
What happened to her ? The girl who said she was more than fine
It wasn't your fault don't fret my boy
I was too much of a dreamer hoping for joy