Survivor

wake-up call

He doesn't want "drama" in his life
He chooses not to have thw kind of attitude that is all sensitive and pensive and talking about everything in his life
He chooses to think that my reactions and the way I deal with things are over the top
He has the right to choose yhe kind of person he keeps and values in his life
And I choose to not be treated like that
No drama
No talking about it
He shouldn't bave to deal with it
I was too raw and open and that was my mistake
Yes honesty is the key to every relationship
But no one wants to deal with all that
Yes it might be my insecurities but he does in fact make me feel like that
And the fact that he doesn't think that's worth adressing
The fact that he doesn't even apologize when I say i'm hurt by it
Means that I should probably walk out
Yes I love him and I care about him deeply
And I know he cares, just not enough to make that effort
I won't keep putting myself in this situation
Because I shouldn't have to
Because that's not the kind of treatment I expect from him
And that's my mistake
I shouldn't expect anything from him and I do
But maybe he doesn't want to be that person so I shouldn't keep demanding that of him