Heart Beat

chapter 21

The confused minds..
PART 2.....

Khushi.

After that encounter with viji I did not speak to him much I stayed back for the marriage as I did not want people to know about what happen between us and I also did not wanted to upset Nitin.

"You seemed lost ksh" priya asked me.

"I'm fine piggy" I tried to be normal.

"Okay I'll buy that but you better tell me what happen between you and V he is trying to talk to you but you are ignoring him. And everyone is noticing that ksh don't think people are dum" she explained and I was just ignoring her as well.

"I need to freshen up" I said and left for my room.

I shut the door and cried my whole heart and I wanted to be alone but I did wanted to talk to viji now but what he said to me hurted me more than anything. How can he think I'm using him how can he.

After sometime I heard a knock on the door I got to open and once I did I saw viji standing there. I moved from the door to allow him inside.

"We need to talk kush" he said.

"I'm listening" I spoke holding back my tears.

"I'm sorry for what happen I did not know...."

"What are you talking about?" I cut him off asking him this question.

"You know what I'm talking about" he said turning me towards him.

"Look I don't know what you are talking about. Because I'm not intrested and there is nothing left to talk about. You were right when you told all that and I'm happy that you let all that out" I said to him and left the room.

I went to a silent spot and just sat there looking at the stars I can't believe how life can change so much and so soon....people who were close to you just leave you alone and you won't know where to go what to do and that's the time when you want to be alone and not want anyone but your own self.

Just when i was lost in my thoughts my phone started ringing and it was ma.

"Hey baby how are you " she asked me.

"I'm fine ma" I replied.

"You sound low"

"I'm fine ma trust me" I told her.

"You are lieing to ma huh" she asked.

"Its all over ma I did not know viji would ever thing I was using him and playing with his feelings he thought I was getting back with Naksh he did not let me explain even for once." I explained ma.

"Oh my little baby it's Okay I know it's hard but you got to be strong you know I'm there for you right" she consoled me.

"Yes ma I know and that's the reason why I'm going to come back to you. I'll come home once the wedding is over"

"What about Vijay ?"

"I'm done with everyone ma I can't take all this any more I just don't want anyone in my life"

"You are going to give up everything and come back are you sure?"

"Yes ma I'm sure I don't care about anything I'll find a job there I just wanna come back to you"

"Oh you are most welcome baby but are you ready to forget Vijay?" She asked me.

"I don't know ma but all I know is I'm done I'm done with love I can't get hurt more I have had enough from this love I don't think I can ever love or I will ever want to" I explained her.

"That's not for you to decide that you won't love you know like I have always said love comes to you and it will find its way remember that" she said and I knew what she said was true but I did not wanted anything not atleast for now.

"Whatever ma I'll get back to you and then we can talk. Love you ma."

"Love you more" with that she hang up.

I started to cry again and once I gathered myself and turned back i saw viji standing there I don't know how long he was there but with his looks I would know that he heard my conversation.

"I'm sorry kush" he said.

"Dont be viji"

"I love you kush and always have can't you just give me a chance"
He pleaded.

"I did give a chance to love again viji and I did succeed in loving you but don't ask me for this I don't have anything to give you not even love I want to be alone and be with ma. And I might never come back and I don't have any strength to love you or anyone I'm just done with everything." With that I left the place and promised to myself that I will never turn back again not for anyone all I want is a beautiful life with ma and I'll have it once I finish with this marriage.

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