today was amazing. today i played with him and it wasnt weird. it felt like old times. when it was over i was happy. then i remembered it wasnt the old times. everything was just so different. if only he wasnt such an ass. i would tell him but i just cant. i wanna go up to him so bad and tell him i like him and that i wanna be with him but those are just movies. if it was a gurantee we would be friends and it wouldnt be weird i would gladly tell him. i just cant. i wonder if hes going to the valentines day dance. i would be so happy. i mean of course im not gonna dress like a girl for him but i would be happy. maybe something magical would happen like in the movies. maybe we would dance again and there would be some type of meaning or feeling in it. well see
