Save me || Adopted by 5sos

Chapter 04

These boys really seemed sweet, but that's how everyone acted. They act like they care and then they hurt you as soon as you get close. Except this time I knew people's game, I knew what they played and this time I wouldn't be playing along. I wouldn't be apart of the game; I wouldn't get close to anyone this time. I'm not going to let them in, sure I'll let them know a few things about me and I'll act like I trust them, but I won't.

Quickly but not quick enough we arrived at the boys house which I guess was now my house too. Not for long I thought to myself. I grabbed the duffle bag of clothes I had and followed behind all the boys, they tried to let me go first but I refused.

Later that night

I've always seen that writing had been an escape for me, I had been writing stories for as long as I can remember. I got all my emotions through my writing. If I was sad I'd make a story with a sad girl that gets a happy ending cause secretly I wished for a happy ending. If I was mad I'd take out my notebook and just write a rant. If I would up in the middle of the night I would wake up and write down what the nightmare was about and most of the time it was the same old nightmare.

So I was doing exactly what I love doing - writing. Tucking a piece of my long, dark brown hair behind my ear, I hummed to myself as I let the words in my brain fall onto the paper. The boys had tried to talk to me and get me to come and eat but I really didn't want to, they didn't like it but it seemed as if they understood. I looked at what I had been writing so far.

"A girl that had been through a lot, who would want to adopt that? She always wondered. No wonder why her dad abused her. She always thought. Who would want to deal with a girl that has so many problems she can barely handle them herself? A girl that cuts her skin to get rid of the emotional pain - how does physical pain make life seem better? A girl that has so severe depression she doesn't remember the last time that she felt happy - and she doesn't know the next time she will or if she ever will. A girl that wants to end her own life because all these problems happen everyday and everyday is a struggle. Most would label this girl as broken, a girl that's better off on her own. But I guess that these boys didn't think that because they chose her. Out of everyone they could have picked, they picked her. She wouldn't lie, it did make her feel special, something she hadn't felt in a while. And she wouldn't lie, part of her wanted to trust them but that voice she heard, the voice that she for some reason called a friend, told her she couldn't and she knew the voice was right"

Maybe the story was about me, it really was but writing expressed me and how better to express myself than make a story about myself? The voice that I mentioned was my mind, the part of my mind that knew the truth and was very smart. The voice knew that I couldn't get close to anyone because she knew and understood that they would hurt me just like everyone else did. The voice knew that  my heart couldn't take another heartbreak and kind of me knew that. I put down the pen hearing the boys knock on my door, well, one of the boys knock on my door.

"Come in!" I said, loud enough for them to hear. When my door opened it revealed all 4 of the boys.

"Hi!" they all said at the same time, which made me laugh a little but I quickly covered it with a cough.

"You guys can come in if you'd like, you don't have to stand right outside my door" I said with a quiet laugh, seeing that they were standing exactly out of my room, making sure they weren't inside it at all. Hm, sweet- no, Saige, stop.

"Alright!" Ashton chirped as he practically jogged into my room and over to my bedroom, sitting down on the bed next to me, smiling. "How do you like your room?" He asked while Calum sat on the other side of my bed with Michael, and Luke sat down on the floor in front of Ashton and I.

"I love my room" I said, giving them a small smile. And it was true, I always dreamed of having a bedroom like this. It was something you would see off of tumblr. Something a famous person would have. I'm not going to lie, when we first got to this house I was amazed because this house is beautiful and quite large. I wondered how these boys got that much money but I wasn't going to ask; that would be rude.

"Good" Ashton grinned at me.

"We have some other stuff for you" Luke added onto Ashton, grinning also.

"And we hope that you like them" Calum added onto Luke, which made me laugh slightly.

"What's funny?" Michael asked

"Do you guys always add onto what the last person said? It's just quite funny in my mind at least" I said, grinning at them slightly.

"Sometimes" They all said at the same time which made us all laugh.

They handed me a bag, one of those bags that holds Christmas presents, but this one was just a pink bag. I looked at it then the boys slightly confused but took out the tissue paper when Ashton made a gesture telling me to open it. Not wanting to make a mess, I put the tissue paper next to me neatly and then reached bag into the bag.

I didn't expect any of this, in all honesty. I didn't think anyone would adopt me, in fact I was almost convinced that no one would but to my surprise these boys did. I also didn't expect to be adopted by 4 boys who seemed as if they were just nice and couldn't hurt a fly, but then again people are good at hiding.

When I took my hand out of the bag, I looked at what I had grasped in my hand and I smiled softly at it. It was an IPhone 6s that was rose gold colored. I had always wanted one of these, it was beautiful colored and I liked the phone. I had never had one but one of the people that adopted me did and I fell in love with it. The next thing I pulled out of the bag was a photo album.

"What's this for?" I asked while looking over at the boys, smiling softly "And thank you for the phone, I've always wanted one" I admitted, a small blush spreading across my face.

"It's for all the pictures we're going to take together, that book will be filled soon. And no need to thank us for it, you deserve a phone" Luke said as he smiled softly. The thing about the pictures, it made me get a weird feeling my chest. Something I haven't felt in a while, it felt.. nice. Maybe these boys really wouldn't hurt me and maybe they really just wanted someone else in their house to look after and be protective of. Of course I wouldn't trust them right away, I wouldn't trust them until I knew I could and that I knew they wouldn't hurt me.

I tucked a piece of my hair behind my ear and I gave them a small smile. I saw Michael picking up the blue notebook that was oh-so-familiar.

"What's this?" Michael asked as he flipped open the notebook. Quickly, I reached over and I grabbed it out of his hands.

"It's my writing notebook" I admitted, another blush spreading across my face.

"Can we read it? Michael asked with a chuckle, as he looked at me with his eyebrow raised. I quickly shook my head

"Maybe one day but not any time soon" I said as I looked at him. He nodded,

"Alright" he mumbled. I smiled softly and looked at all of the boys

"I'm tired" I said, a small yawn escaping my lips and I covered my mouth while I yawned.

"We'll leave you to sleep then" Ashton said. They all hugged me and we all said goodnight to each other.

Today had been one of the best day's that I've had in a while, I don't think I had smiled that much in a while either, even if I hadn't smiled that much. I don't know why I was so happy and smiling so much for myself but it kind of felt alright. That was the first time I've fallen asleep with a smile on my face in a long time..