High School Screw Ups

Chapter 17-Release Date

~Charlotte~

You know those moments when you look back on your life and almost want to cry at all the happy memories you have? All the amazing times, the times when you felt invincible, when you felt like nothing could upset you ever again. Those moments where you appreciate Every. Single. Thing. that has happened to you. Ever. Those moments when you just want to hug everyone you've ever met and tell them thank you, the moments when you feel... content. That is the feeling I felt leaving Yangup Psyc Hospital. I felt infinite. Nothing could drag me back down to how I'd been feeling, granted I stayed longer than I should have because I was suicidal but now I feel like everything is falling into place. I walk out the doors and see my dad, Emily and... Kyle, my amazing boyfriend Kyle. I run to him and he lifts me into a hug, swinging me around and finally letting my feet rest on the ground. "I missed you babe", he states. I missed him too, I missed everyone. It's been two weeks since I've seen dad and Kyle and a week since Emily was released, I noticed Riley was missing so obviously him and Emily aren't on good terms yet. I give dad and Emily a hug each and we get into the car driving away from the prison I've been stuck in. I can't wait to sleep in my own bed, it doesn't take me long to drift off into sleep in the car, I wake up and I'm in my bed with Kyle and it's 8am. I let out a deep sigh, I could get used to this...

~Emily~

That was one of the hardest things I've ever done, watching Charlotte in there, it was the longest week of my life, she kept scratching her arms so they had to put these sleeves she couldn't lift up on her. Every night she was crying after talking to the psychologist, she'll say otherwise but she tried to kill herself on the third night. She broke a mirror and tried to slit her throat with the shards but I caught her. That was when she started getting better, after that night. She stopped crying at night, I stayed an extra three days to keep an eye on her and when I left they told me she would be out in a week if things went well and they must have because it's been a week and we're on the couch together watching She's The Man. Kyle stayed over last night but I know they didn't do anything because she was absolutely exhausted. He's staying again tonight though and she's feeling a lot better. I think he's going to stay here for about a week while she gets used to being home. I still haven't spoken to Riley since before the hospital but I'm hoping we'll talk soon. I miss him so much it's hard being without him. I was with him for two beautiful years and I can't remember what life was like before I was with him. The movie finishes and I leave Charlotte on the couch and as I go up the stairs I see Kyle sit down with her and they cuddle up. Cute. I go up to my room and turn my speaker on 'Hello' starts playing and instantly tears start streaming down my face. I scream the chorus and collapse on my bed. My hand finds my phone and I have a text from... from Riley? 'we need to talk' I wonder what that's about as I press the call button, this should be interesting...

~Riley~

My hand twitches towards my phone, all I want to do is call her and say I love her and I'm sorry and I miss her so much but it's not fair, it's not fair on me and It's not fair on her. But god do I miss her. The past two weeks I've just been moping around the house doing nothing. I don't want to see anyone, I don't want to do anything. At the same time though I want to go out just not alone. I want Emily back, this time forever. I finally latch onto my phone and send her a simple yet effective text, 'we need to talk'...