I Secretly Love You (Narry)

Chapter 19

Harry's POV

"What?" I pulled away and looked into his bloodshut eyes.

"She's dead."

"Who's dead Niall."

"She's dead."

"Where's your phone?"

He slowly lifted his arm up and pointed behind me. I turned my head and saw the phone. The glass was shattered, I guess he had thrown it against the tree. I turned back and cupped his face imbetween my hands, forcing him to look at me.

"Niall, what happened? What did Liam tell you?"

 He broke our gaze and layed his head on my shoulder. "M-my mom. S-she's.....s-she's......" He broke down into heavy tears. I pulled him into a warm embrace and rubbed his back soothingly.

"Shh...shh Niall. It's going to be okay, okay?" He pulled away and stared at me with the red, watery eyes that made me want to cry along with him. 

 "It's n-not going to be o-okay H-Harry" he stammered. "She is......w-was my mother." I sighed thoughtfully and rubbed his arm. "I'm so sorry Niall. I couldn't even imagine loosing someone like my mom." He looked at me and sniffled.

"I'm sorry something ruined our plans again." He said and wiped a tear from the corner of his eye. "Oh don't be sorry. Something happened that was really important. We'll try again later, yeah?" He bit his lip to keep from crying even more. "Yeah."

 I pulled him up and we walked in the direction of the cabin. I grabbed his hand intertwined his fingers in mine. I stopped and looked at him as I brushed his hair with my free hand. "I love you Niall, and I want you to know that I'm here for you if you need anything."

 "I know."

 I kissed his forehead and we kept on walking.

 We reached the cabin and took our bags off the floor. Good thing we didn't unpack yet. We put them in the trunk of our car and we got in, me in the driver's seat. I didn't think Niall would want to drive right now. 

 Niall's POV

The ride was pretty silent, Harry kept his eyes on the road. I leaned my head against the window and looked out of the glass, staring into space. I couldn't believe my mom was dead. The last time I saw her was when met me at the hospital when I passed out. I was so embarrassed, I hadn't even said 'I love you' not even 'bye'. I sniffled at the thought.

Harry put a hand on my thigh, keeping his eyes on the road. "Are you okay?" he asked. I sniffled and bit my lip. "Y-yeah i'm f-fine." He looked at me but I didn't look back. He took his hand off me and put it back on the wheel.

 "Harry?"

 He instantly looked at me as if he were waiting for me to say something. "I didn't even say 'I love you' to my mom."

 He sighed and pulled over. "Niall, it's okay, you didn't know that this was going to happen so it didn't occur to you to say anything to her."

 "Stop saying it's okay, it's not okay. She's my mother, I should of said something and now I'll never get the chance." He looked at me. Studied me. "I'm positive she knows you love her." "Yeah? How are you so sure?" "Because you're lovable and sweet and caring. You were always sweet to her. She knows."

 I sighed and kept looking out of the window avoiding eye contact. He started the car up again and began driving.  

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"Niall!"

I ran towards Liam who was running towards me. We met and he picked me up, spinning me around, the same way Harry had done before. He set me down and I started crying into his shoulder. He wrapped his arms around my waist and I held my arms to his chest so as if he was protecting me from the world. 

 "Niall, I'm sorry about what happened. I'm here for you okay? whenever you need anything, don't hesitate to ask. We'll get through this, together." I pulled back and he kissed my nose. I blushed bit my lip.

 "Erm, not to interrupt but, I need some help with this." Harry said angrily as he struggled to take the bags out of the trunk. I saw a trace of red on Liam's cheek. I pulled away and ran to Harry who was mumbling something.

 "What were you doing with Liam?" Harry asked sharply taking out one of our luggages and throwing it on the ground. "Harry, relax. We wern't doing anything. He was just trying to calm me down and let me tell you, he was doing a better job than someone."

 He looked at me. I couldn't read his expression, it was something mixed with anger and sadness. "I was trying my best to comfort you Niall, and if it didn't work, I'm sorry okay?" He picked up his bag and stalked to the hotel. I couldn't help but feel bad. I sighed, took my bags and shuffled to the hotel with Liam following behind me.

"Ah, Niall, I'm sorry about what happened." Louis said as he hugged me tight. Zayn came and joined in. "Thanks guys." I said and led into my room where Harry was, already sorting through some clothes. I walked over and sat down beside him.

"Harry, I'm sorry I said that to you it's just....I'm mad that....upset that this happened and...." Harry cut me off by crashing his lips against mine. I pulled back and bit my lip. "Niall it's fine, I understand that you have mixed feelings."

 "That's why you're the best boyfriend ever, you can always forgive me." I smiled and kissed his cheek. He placed a hand on my neck and smiled at me.

"I love you."

"I love you more."

"I love you most."