Words I Cannot Say

Stuck in the Past

I am told to look to the future
I try to do just that
I am to far into the past
A small part of me won't let go
I want to continue on
I get excited for the future
I feel a small part pull within me
It pulls me back
I get stuck not knowing what to do
Everything feels so hopeless
I fight with everything I can
I think of how great it would be
Imagine what it would be like
Think of all the things I have
Focus on what's most important
All this to hold on
Memories pop up that make me want to cry
I see how things could have been
If I wasn't left behind
I miss everything we did
It's the first thing in my head
The only thing left
It feels like I'm falling
I might lose this battle
Deep inside of me
It pulls me in the past
Keeping a firm grip on me
It knows my weakness
It is used against me
It's shown as a good thing
Pulls memories from the dark
Leading up to the same thing
To my little angel
It breaks my heart every time
It breaks me down
My emotions
My mind
My body
Everything shuts down
A small bit of hope is left
I give in to the past
I just sit and cry
I feel so trapped in the past
Just as I'm moving on
It hits me again
There is too much weight on my shoulders
I can barely keep it up