A Hole in One's Heart [Kakashi Hatake]

Chapter 9: Chakra Control

This is the longest chapter so far. Hopefully that will make up for how short the last part was! Enjoy :)

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     I don't remember much of the walk home, but I felt the tears roll off my cheeks onto Kakashi's jacket. He was right; my parents wouldn't have wanted me to live my life as a depressed hermit. I would live for them and if I was able knock some ninja heads along the way, that would be an added bonus. I felt kind of bad about what I had told Kakashi about Obito and Rin, but my fears vanished after he held onto me even tighter than before like he was afraid to let go. I brought my face into his neck and tried to stem the flow of tears that refused to obey my orders.

     I laughed a little internally, my mom had always joked about making me an arranged marriage because I would always spurn men's advances, and she worried that I would die an old maid. However, here I was being held onto by a man that I had just barely met, but I knew that I loved already. In fact, I had kind of known this while watching the anime, and it was painful to realize that the perfect person for me was a drawing. 'Maybe this is your doing, Mom. Still playing matchmaker from where ever you and Dad are now.' So I nestled in closer and started to drift asleep.

    I woke up slightly when I felt Kakashi start walking up the stairs of his apartment complex. Even with my added weight, he scaled the stairs like it was nothing until he reached his door. Carefully shifting my weight in his arms, he freed his right hand and opened up the door. He gently placed me down on my futon and stayed crouching by my side, his eyes locked on mine.

    "It is only just past eight. Do you want me to make a light dinner or do you just want to go to sleep?" His gentle and caring question took me off guard. He was never one to show emotions, but I guessed he just did a really good job hiding his caring side from the world most of the time because right now he was a pro mother-hen.

    "I'm fine. Lunch was super late so I think that I will just go to sleep now. What time do we start tomorrow?"

    "I was thinking around seven or eight, but since you're here we don't really need a set time."

    "You're just happy because that means that you can't be late." I yawned turning over onto my side and falling asleep almost immediately. Crying is surprisingly tiring.

    I woke up very early in the morning and dangerously hungry. 'This is what I get for going to sleep at eight without dinner. Look at the sky, it's probably not even six in the morning.' Deciding that an early start might be a good idea, I slowly extracted myself from my futon. Which, by the way, was surprisingly comfortable. I used the bathroom, changed, and cleaned up as quietly as I could before Kakashi woke up. I looked over to see him lying on his back, his covers splayed slightly around him. He was wearing a sleeveless, tight fitting, blue shirt and that damn mask. That shirt made him look ripped in the anime, but, wow, in real life... Michelangelo could use him as a model (the time and universe differences aside) because he was perfect. I was looking at the ANBU tattoo on his left arm when I realized that it would be next-level awkward if he woke up to see me staring at his abs so I walked to the small kitchen. I looked through his cupboard and fridge and decided to make some eggs. As I cooked all that I could think about were his abs. I am a huge sucker for abs, always have been and always will be, and his abs made me realize that I had lived a lie. A life of admiring lesser abs.

    I was violently pulled from my ab daydreams when I heard a yawn. "Wow, something smells really good." Kakashi mumbled right behind me causing me to jump about five feet into the air.

    "JESUS CHRIST, DON'T SCARE ME LIKE THAT!!" I shouted. He looked really puzzled at my curse, apparently they didn't have Jesus here. "Don't ask," I huffed, "I don't feel like explaining all of the complexities of my world's religions right now." He nodded in mild understanding.