Die in your arms- Janoskians (Luke Brooks Fanfiction)

Chapter 21:

(i forgot to include liam in the other chapter so in this case he went over sees)

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Luke's POV: 

(a few days later) 

"luke have you told her yet" beau said following me into my room "i already told you for the millionth time NO" i say rolling my eyes "well you have to tell her before she hears it from someone else" "beau im going to tell her tonight, im taking her out and ill tell her easy and slowly" beau shakes his head and walks to his room. i go up to my bunk and lay my head down while texting ashley 

Luke: be ready by 5 yea? 

Ashley: yea, im so excited to see you it feels like forever! (although it was only like 3 days ago) missin you arleady :( 

i looked the message for a while. i cant believe im leaving her. but its not like a have a choice, its for the fans. 

Luke: yea i know me to 

Ashley: <3

Luke: xx

(4:30) 

i checked the time and decided that i should start getting ready now. i got into my black tux with a red bow tie and black shoes. i messed up my hair a bit and fixed it up. i got into beaus car and drove to ashleys house. i stopped in her driveway and got out of the car, and knocked on her door, i felt a rush of nerves coming through my body but i had to tell her, its for the best. the door opened and there stood a guy who i havent see before "are you luke" i smile and nod "yea thats me" he motions me to come in "dont hurt ashley whatever you do and if you do, ill break every single bone in your body" oh great "um no problem, but just a question out of curiosity, who are you?" he smirkes and holds out his hand "im harry, justin's friends" i nod and shake his hand. i turn my head to see Ashley in a gorgeous dress that went red, high and tight at the top and then pink, short and flowy at the bottom. she wore nude colour heels. her hair was in loose curls and she had dark mascara, a bit of blush and pink lipstick. she looked absolutely stunning. she comes and hugs me "hi sexy" i kiss her forehead "you look stunning, so beautiful" she smiled and kissed me and took my hand and we walked out the door "bye justin, bye harry, bye mum, bye dad" she called out then shut her door. 

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i took her into the place and we sat down, ate, laughed and did heaps of random things until, i decided i should tell her. "hey ash, i dont know how your going to take this but i need to tell you something" she looked and her smile faded a bit "what is it" i looked down and then up at her. "um, you know how i do janoskians and all that?" she nods nervously and i continue "we have to tour the world for our #notaboyband concert" she froze, staring at me and didnt say a word "ash, please say something" she shook her head and i could tell she was trying hard not to cry "by the world you mean... everywhere" i nod and she looks down "im sorry but i have to" "how long" she asks sniffling "its going to take minimum 2 months" her face goes blank "minimum?" she asks biting her lip to stop her her self from crying "yea because as soon as we do the concert we move to a different country, its going to be crazy" tears start falling from her eyes "im sorry" "just dont worry about it" she gets up and walks out of the resturant. i go and pay the people and go after her into beau's car. 

the ride home was really silent, i could hear her silently crying. i pull up at her her house "ash im sorry, but its not like i have a choice" i say before she could get out. "luke its not about that i cant stop you from doing what you do" she says and then gets out closing the door walking towards her house. i get out of the car "then what is it" i call out to her, she stops and turns around "when are you going" she ask me "in two weeks and you still havent answered my question" she bit her lip again to stop herself and put her hands on her head in fustration "its because, i need you" she let out and then burst into tears, i walk up to her and hug her while she crys in my chest "im sorry ash" i whisper in her ear and then kiss her on the forehead. she realesed herself from the embrace and took her keys out to unlock the door and she opened it and turned to face me motioning me to follow her inside. i put my arm around her waist and made circles on her back using my thumb. i followed her into her room and we sat down on her bed 

"so what happens now" she asks me and i look at her "what do you mean?" i ask her confused and she rolls her eyes "with us? what are we going to do" "nothing" "luke i mean about the long distance relationship? how are we supposed to handle that, your going to be busy all the time" "what are you saying" she looked down and then back up at me and i could see tears coming down her face "im saying that maybe we should break up" i look at her wide eyed "are you serious" tears start rolling down her face heavily "so what we get back together every things all fine and i have to tour around the world for 2 months for my career and thats a problem because of long distance relationship? you see jai and ariana do it, why are we different, they both live busy lives but still manage to make time for each other. ashley you make it like it was my descision to tour, yes of course i want to but you dont think i want to be here with you, well your wrong. and if long distance bothers you that much then well break up" she looks at me with her eyes boiling with tears "luke you make it like i want to break up with you" she said in between crying "well you sure made it sound like it" she starts heavily crying now "luke just go" i chuckle at her and put my head in my hands in frustration "so thats it, right before i leave, were over" she ran her hands through her hair and inhaled and exhaled heavily 

"luke do you really think that i WANT to break up with you" i roll my eyes at her and tighten my fists "i dont fricken know, your not making it easy to read right now. why dont you tell me farr out" "yea and neither are you, first you get defensive when i tell you that maybe it might be easier if we broke up and now your making it like you want it ok, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me and now look at you. fricken hell luke, right now i dont even know who you are. all i said was it might be easier if we did, i never meant a full on breakup, god luke, and then you make me the bad guy, i never wanted to break up with you, i just thought it would be less pain. i couldnt last 3 days without you imagine 2 months. i cant believe how your acting right now, absolutely pathetic, so if this is what you want then you can go" she says pointing to the door and crying her eyes out. i felt really bad for going off at her. i curse under my breathe and then look up to face ashley "ashley i dont want to break up with you, im just scared of loosing you" i say to her putting my arms around her waist while she looks up at me "your not going to loose me" she says sniffling and putting her head in my chest 

"are we breaking up?" i ask her and she looks up at me and shakes her head "i cant stand being away from you" she says and hugs me tightly "im sorry for everything i said, i didnt mean it" i say and i hear her say something to me "me too" i go and lay down on her bed and she lays down next to me while i wrap my arms around her and drift off to sleep, its been a long day!

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finshed :) next chapter will be up soon