Die in your arms- Janoskians (Luke Brooks Fanfiction)

Chapter 33:

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Ashley's POV: 

i sigh heavily before knocking on his door, i keep my head down thinking of what to say to him and as soon as the door opens my head shots up "luke i- Jai?" i say and jai laughs "hes in there and im out seeyas" he says walking away and i walk into the hotel room to see luke laying down on his bed asleep. i walked closer towards him, he looked so beautiful and peaceful. maybe i should leave because if i sit and wait for him it'll just be weird an creepy, so i turn around walking towards the door "ashley?" i heard him say and i i bite my lip turning back around to face him, feeling guilty that i woke him up "im sorry, i didnt know you were sleeping" he shakes his head sits up "its fine, um what are you doing here" i play with my fingers awkwardly with my head down as i can feel his gaze on me "i saw your text and i needed to see you, so you can explain" i felt him move closer to me and lift my chin up to face him. "before i tell you, i just want to ask you, if you trust me" i turn my head away and nod slightly " i do trust you luke, but i cant gurantee after this" "what do you mean" he asks looking at me confused and i turn to face him "im saying, its going to take time for me to fully trust you again because i want to see that you wont do it again and i need to know that before i can fully commit myself to you again" 

he nods biting his lipring and stepping back "are you saying that we should breakup" i shake my head at him smiling "i could never do that! im thinking a break for a while to see where things take us" i say and he nods again "ok explain, im ready to hear" i say and he grabs my hand leading me to his bed where we both sit down and he faces me

"ok so it was the end of the concert and some backstage fans were talking to us and these two girls asked for a photo with me so i said yes then one of them asked me to be their first kiss. i was shocked and i said no the first time, then the second time i hestitated so they kept asking and i really wanted to satisfy my fans, i know it was a stupid move but i couldnt disappoint them. anyway some other girls saw and they thought that because i agreed to that girl i would agree to a lot other fans and lots of other people asked me and it was crazy if i said no then they would say that i was picking favourite fans and they would call themselves ugly and not worthy of me and i just felt bad so i kinda had to. then tyler made a tweet about it and i dont know if you saw but i did to saying that people should save there first kisses for someone special and i dont think that person is me" 

i nod and he puts his head down "luke, i believe you but i just think i need some time to trust you again" he nods and looks up to face me "its ok i understand" i get up and walk towards the door but felt lukes hand tug on mine so i turn around "temporary goodbye kiss?" he says smirking and i smile moving closer to him wrapping my arms around his neck as he wraps his around my waist "i didnt mention how hot you look" he says and i chuckle leaning in and as soon as our lips touch he pulls me closer to him. one kiss turned into a makeout session pretty quickly. he pushed me against the wall still kissing me and i played with his hair slightly pulling on it and he smiled through it. i pull away leaning my forehead against his smiling like crazy and him doing the same "farout your hot" i giggle and putting both hands on his chest attempting to push him away and when i did i raise my eyebrows at him smiling "that should keep you going til i decide to take you back again" i say and he smiles hugging me. 

i was wearing heels so i was the same height as him!!! "i love you gorgeous, and only you" he says releasing me from the hug and i kiss him on the cheek "i love you too" i say walking out of his hotel room, walking to beaus with a huge smile on my face. "ohhhhhhhhhh someone had an intense make up" i giggle and lay down next to him "yea i forgave him" "yay luke and ashley shippings are back" i roll my eyes smiling shaking my head "no i need time before i decide to trust him again or take him back" he nods and liam runs in from the bathroom and jumps on me and beau "omg you are heavier then you look, and thats saying something" he playfully pushed me and moved in the middle between me and beau taking selfies off his phone "you are a kid" he puts a retarded face on and i push it away. "alright we need to get to the concert now, you coming" beau asks getting up and i nod. "leggo" i say walking out the door with liam. the rest of the boys get out of their rooms and i catch luke looking at me.