The Sinner (kellic)

chapter 9

The next day I'm usually nervous. I've finally admitted to myself that I do, in fact have feelings for the little confused dummy, kellin. Him being so confused is what has me worried. He could decide that the gay life just isn't for him and go back to avoiding me, which would really suck. So I guess I'll just have to make it really hard to resist me. That's a good plan right? Whatever it's all I have. So with these new intention I make sure to sit extra close to kellin at breakfast, our knees bumping each other every so often as we chat with his parents like we do every morning.

"So Vic how is work going?" Ben, the preacher asks me conversationally. I give him a big fake smile and nod. "It's going great actually. Mostly because of kellin." I say bumping my shoulder into his playfully. I love getting reactions out of the poor kid and of course, I'm not disappointed when he blushes and stutter.

"Uh yeah he's a really good worker." He lies, red faced. I have to hold back my laugh as Lisa beams at the two of us.

"I could tell from our first dinner altogether that you two would get close." She says proudly. If only she knew. Kellin just nods wide eyed looking guilty and uncomfortable. It makes me kind of sad, knowing that because of his religion he feels guilty for something that is only natural for him. I mean his parents seem so nice and accepting, they took me in off the streets for god's sake. They wouldn't really disown him or anything right? I'd have to bring it up with him later, maybe when he's actually come to terms with his super gayness.

Kellin stays mostly quiet for the rest of breakfast, and I keep glancing at him from the corner of my eye. Why can't we just, like make out and other fun stuff without him being all regretful?

After breakfast, everyone goes about their normal routine for the day. Kellin and I don't talk about last night at all on the ride to work. I'm going to wait for him to bring it up. He's sort of stubborn and I know pushing him wouldn't be a good idea, so I wait.

He finally comes to me,

Looking timid as hell, but putting on a brave face, around the time I usually go to lunch and take care of my...other business.

"What's up?" I ask playing dumb and leaning back in my chair to look up at his face expectantly.

"Um I-"he stops and shakes his head in frustration. His face scrunches up, as if he's thinking hard, and he takes a step back, his arms swinging at his side.

"Uh never mind." He says hastily, attempting to retreat back to wherever the fuck it is he works. I stand quickly and grab his arm before he has a chance to leave and he turns around to look at my hand wrapped loosely around his wrist and then back up at me questioningly.

"Say what you have to." I prompt gently.

"O-okay. I maybe kind of like you? b-but I don't want to." He says this all so quickly and keeps his eyes on his shoes. I sigh, trying to figure out what to say to reassure him, because honestly we are in the same boat right now. Kellin is honestly a sweet heart. Me? Not so much. I suck. And I know I'm not really any good for him, but hey he's cute so yeah.

"That's fine. We don't have to do anything serious. We can have a little fun." I smile, taking my hand from his arm to tilt is head up with a smirk, stepping a little closer. He watched me, with big blue eyes as I duck my head down a little to brush my lips against his light as a feather.

"It can be our little secret." I whisper against his lips. I can feel him shiver under my lips and I smile before kissing him again, a little firmer, but still light and teasing. He melts little from his stiff position, kissing e back with a sigh. His small body leans into mine and he wraps his arms around my neck and I let mine fall to his waist, pulling him even closer as the kiss progresses. I bite is bottom lip gently and he gasps in surprise and I slip my tongue in his mouth. It's getting pretty heated when someone clears their throat. Kellin leaps away, pushing me back in the process.