The Sinner (kellic)

chapter 12

(A/N) holy shit I bet you thought i died and this fic would be over right?? but naahhh, last semester was really messy. i was getting back on antidepressants, not paying rent and being broke af, soooo i had no chance to update. i will be finishing this fucking story though so no worries. thanks anyone who still stuck around and reads this chapter!

It's been about a week since I stupidly agreed to being in a secret relationship with kellin. Honestly it's not that bad. I mean sneaking around and kissing is pretty hot I guess, but I have a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach about it. I think the feeling started after kellin's parents introduced me to the church as a part of their family. Now, I could be wrong, seeing as I'm not sure I've ever felt this before, but I may feel guilty. I know right. Me, Victor Fuentes, feels guilt. I didn't even know I had a conscious. To say I'm surprised is an understatement. I guess I just feel like I'm somehow betraying their trust by trying to fuck their son. I can't seem to keep my hands off the kid though. It's especially hard now, at work. It's been a really slow day at the motel and kellin is sitting on top of the counter, swinging his legs in an almost childish way with a small grin.

"you know, we haven't really done much since that time in the game room..." kellin starts, his voice low and quiet., he avoids my eyes and instead chooses to stare intently at my shoes, biting his lip and driving me crazy. The guilt that I feel all too often now is pushed aside as I move to stand in-between his legs, lifting his chin up to meet my eyes.

"so?" I question with a smirk as his face changes from pale cream to pink.

"so...m-maybe we can ...I don't know stop looking at me like that!" kellin said, hiding his face in his hands as his pink coloring deepens. I laugh backing away from him and giving him some room.

"don't worry I know kid. How bout we do something tonight? Like go out or something?" I say offhandedly, as I look at the keys to various rooms, making sure they are where they're supposed to be.

"you mean like a date?" his voice is slightly higher, making me laugh again.

"yeah I guess. If you want."

Kellin squeals, kicking his legs back and forth in excitement.

"I take that as a yes?"

"yes! But...what about my parents? What will we tell them?" he asks as his excitement dies down. I give him a noncommittal shrug.

"I don't know the truth?" I say of course only kidding. Kellin's face pales though as if I were talking about killing puppies.

"no what? They can never, ever ever know about anything! I would be so dead, I'm already going to hell I don't need them knowing it though!" kellin starts his blabbering, something I'm very accustomed to when he's nervous.

I roll my eyes and cut him off. "it was a joke kellin. Chill out with all the hell shit ok? If there is a god, he doesn't hate gays alright." I give his knee a small pat as he takes a deep breath and nods.

"sorry." Is all he says before hoping off the counter. "I'm going to go clean up some rooms." He murmurs, disappearing out the door a second later. Well ok then. I don't have the emotional energy to even attempt to understand what the hell is going through his head at the moment, so I push his odd behavior to the back of my mind for now. I have slightly more pressing matters to think about. Since the Bostwicks have introduced me to the church as one of their own, it's only a matter of time before the word starts to spread and the guys at the club figure out why I've been so distant. I mean I could consider just dropping the job, but it's not that easy. I owe people, powerful people, some things. I also can't continue to live with the Bostwicks forever, no matter how hot their son is or how nice they are. I groan out loud in frustration. I want to push all these problems away and focus on right now, but they are always leaking to the forefront of my mind and I know I'm going to have to deal with all this shit sooner rather than later.

(A/N) so its mad short and shit but, its just something to put up really quick while i try and remember wtf is even going on. I promise the next chapter will be longer and everything so yeah.