Teen Tales.

I don't know why but I just do.

*her point of view*

I see him almost every day. Laughing with his friends. Giving me glares. But I try not to pass them back. I trusted him and his words but he betrayed my love for crying out loud. I am a teenager and people tell me that he was not my true love and that I have a lot of time to find it or maybe it will come to me crawling all the way because that's what is meant to be. We fell in love. Spent a great time together but when he got sick of it he just dropped it like it was all for nothing.

Never did I care about anybody so much. Never did I hesitate to talk about anything at all. But when it comes to him. I become weak. Even when I think about the I love you-s it strikes me it was all a lie. I still believe that he still remembers. But he doesn't. He hates me. I know he doesn't but he claims to. I wonder how you can just wake up one day and change your feelings from loving to hating someone who meant everything to you till yesterday. We did not plan to be in a relationship forever but doesn't mean that we did this for fun right? Even though He was the one who confessed his love and established a connection between us which always questioned people - why is he backing up now? They used to make jokes and mess around with us about what if we get married but we only blushed and ignored that question because it was ridiculous , we knew we aren't gonna last forever but if we do who the hell knows what will happen next?

I did like the way he plays football and jumps like a real DJ on his new track he spent hardly 15 minutes on.Even  The fact that he's taller than me and can pick me up so easily and will never let go of my hand. He's stupid but yet so cute and makes me go bananas just by looking at me. He does seriously. I won't praise him a lot because I am aware of his flaws and passions and I love him the way he is. Or I used to love him? A while ago when he broke up, he just stopped talking to me but does he realize he's still talking to me in my thoughts and dreams? The way he treated me back then does not makes me hate him. He was just trying to make it easy for me. But I can't let go of him and even I don't have a legit reason for that. It was his B'day coming up so was mine. I asked him what does he expects me to gift him. He smiled and replied you did not let me buy you a single flower on our first date how can I let you spend money on me? How sweet.

So I planned a secret birthday party for him and planned to do a lot of things. Well just like any other hangout we met up and that day was the most magical day of my life. The very day when we bid our goodbye's he held me in his arms and we just stood there for a while and we kissed for the first time. Well, he kinda planned it doing it on his 16th b'day but he just did. And it was raining and I whispered I love you in his ear and went back home giggling and blushing.

We broke up a week after that and my plans and happiness faded to grey (PS: I love grey). He didn't even say it on my face and just ended it with a pointless note. He stopped talking to me. So on his birthday I found some courage to go and atleast wish him in person the very first time after our break up, it did not turn out awkward , it all seemed the same. The look in his eyes, his aura and our last hug with no strings attached. Well on my B'day I waited till 11PM for just a text and there goes nothing. I just replay it my mind how he promised me to be the first person to wish me but turns out that life wants me to learn the truth the hard way. Everything has an end.

I try not to think about him all the time. I try not to cry. I try not to remember our days. I don't know why but I just do. I love to know that he's happy, which I am very glad to know but without me it breaks me up again. But every time he's with me, I don't think about anything but him. I can just lay my head on his shoulder and forget all my troubles for once and live the moment. But now I can't. I lost him and there is no coming back. I am optimistic and after all this time I was not depressed. I was angry at myself and looking for reasons where I went wrong. I could not find one. I let the days pass away and let karma work.

Well You can't start hating anybody just because they hurt you once. Right? All these times when everyone told me to forget him, I always said-"I can forgive but never forget."

My love still exists but I hide it away from this world because I know there is no place for it left. I learned to be happy alone, how to live after losing something, the pain of being hurt which may not linger long but only make me more strong day by day. And I would like to thank him for everything and nothing he has done for me. And he's a hot, handsome, a jock to be honest and just a teenager and can get any girl that he wants but he doesn't. I was hurt, maybe too much. But I realized the point that he doesn't needs me or wants me either. And it's high time that I should let go of him and I know he doesn't cares but when I hear his name my hearts starts racing. I still hope he remembers me forever because I love him. I don't know why but I just do...