Teen Tales.

Keeping Promises.

*her point of view*

It's the point of your life when you've found the one and want to be together forever. But when doubts and troubles Starts rising you have no other option than taking a break?

It's dark and cold and all you need is to go back in time and fix all your mistakes. Regretting all the things you said to each other only because you were angry and stopped thinking. And kept on satisfying yourself that this is just a dream but it was not. But will thinking about it work? Whom am I kidding.

Days where you are in the same place. Together. But feel isolated in your heart. Feel like there is nothing to say. Nothing to share. Even a simple hello is hard to come out. You try your best to hold it together but you can't and later you break down. At the very moment mentally yes but you can't let him see this part of you. Letting go is the only answer.

When you get that one Unknow call but you recognize the number and don't pick up. The times you talk but only about weather and work. Dead silence. Nothing more. Nothing less.

When others understand your heart too but just one person does not. And apologising is not a way to solve it. But then too you're too lovesick to do so and he comes running back to you even after all he did was too much? Why?

I'll never hold him like I used to. Wishing I could wake up with amnesia. Because forgetting is the most difficult thing I can name right now. Finally its time to move on.

Love a word that only brings misery and pain to me.

The promises and decisions. The laughter and smiles. The roses and goodbyes. All a waste of time.

It's like you're screaming but no one can hear you. But now that I'm broken and now that you know it. I'm caught up. The reality strikes us hard. A perfect time to cry right? *fake smiles*

I didn't want to be sad but I can't help but do anything else. The recent events have been playing in my head day and night. And I'm going insane!

It all started to fall apart all over again. Every day. Every night.

I'm tired of telling people that I'm fine but I still want all of it to be the way it was before. And losing him was blue, a shade I never experienced.

But I'm too stubborn to give him another chance. Too afraid to think that I can get myself hurt again. Too foolish to think its all my fault. Too kiddish to forgive someone.

Since I promised I'd never let go and yet I will never do so. He'll live in my heart forever in the form of my demons. Watching me all the time. Living with me. I can't tolerate it. And I don't break promises too.

Only way to fix it all is to die.

And guess what I chose...