Beautiful Tragedies

[18] Provoked

[18] Provoked

The wind keeps on caressing my face. I close my eyes and feel every touching breeze. Patuloy ang pag-ihip noon papasok sa bintana ng classroom. Boring. One word to describe this day. Umuwi na si Kuya Prism, the only guy who can put such color with my life.

Wala din naman si Sphere para gumulo sa akin. Weird, but I kinda miss that guy. Hindi ko inakala na magkakaroon din pala ng pakinabang yun mga trip noon. Sobrang tahimik ng araw ko. Bakit kaya siya absent? Life had never been this dull.

"The foundation day will be held next week, August 19, 2015. Each section has to come up with a booth. Try to work on yours now" our teacher declared. That was enough to gather grunts from my classmate.

Mrs. Lim rolled her eyes. "No buts, work your ass on" and she left. Alis agad? Minsan talaga iniisip kong mga tamad yun guro dito.

Nag-labasan na ang mga estudyante pagkatapos noon. Nag-isip ako ng mga bagay na pwede ko munang gawin. For a moment, I kinda feel pathetic. Wala man lang akong kaibigan na pwede kong makasama. I depend myself on Kuya Prism, to the extent of knowing na siya lang ang kailangan ko.

I never thought he occupied my life this much.

Kinuha ko ang cellphone ni Kuya Prism at sinubukan kong i-text si Sphere. Buti na lang na-save ko din dito ang number niya. Na kay Kuya Prism pa din kasi ang cellphone ko. That ass. Hindi ko alam kung mayroon sapi at naisipan pang makipag-palit.

I ask Sphere where he is, but in the middle of my message, I stopped myself. Afraid, that if he replied, I will no longer believe him. Everything he declared is contradicting. Baka guluhin na naman niya ang utak ko. I didn't want that now, I just wanted everything to be easy.

Tinahak ko ang daan sa corridor nang mapansin ang si Ethan na naka-talikod sa akin at ang lakad ay patuloy. I tried to call him. He stopped and looked at me over his shoulder with his bored eyes. Itong lalaki na ito. Kailan kaya to matutong ngumiti? Parang laging mainit ang ulo.

"What?" he said in usual grumpy tone. Sungit!

"Lunch?" I offered.

"What do you take me for? Your friend?" he told me.

I smiled at him and nodded. Couldn't he see that I'm trying to put things on their right places? Gusto ko lang naman na maging okay na kami sa sobrang daming nangyari sa amin. Why can't he appreciate that? Sobrang sama ba noon?

He scoffed. "You're so fucking weird, you know that?"

Umiling na lang ako. "Despite of everything we'd been through, I still consider you as my friend. You are good as one. You used to be like that" sabi ko. Mabait pa din naman si Ethan. Just exclude his impolite remarks and grumpy attitude.

"Are you sick?" was all he said. Grabe. He took his rudeness to a whole new level. Ano kayang nangyari dito?