Beautiful Tragedies

[34] Everything

[34] Everything

I really didn't know how we passed the UST entrance exam. I mean, my mind was a pool of mess. Sobrang dami kong iniisip na hindi ko na alam kung ano ang uunahin. And seeing the exam result, it just makes me want to jump in happiness! I didn't know how it happened, but I'm happy it did.

Agad kong tinawagan si Sphere.

"We passed" I said, my voice low. Ganito pala yun pakiramdam na hindi ka makapaniwala. Na sa lahat ng gulong nararanasan ko, may magandang bagay pa din na dumadating.

"What? Hindi kita maintindihan?" he told me. Yun boses niya parang kagigising lang.

"We passed"

"Speak louder"

"We passed the exam" I said again, my voice getting clearer. Nang tuluyan nang nag-sink sa akin ay lalong nanlaki ang mata ko pati na rin ang ngiti sa aking labi. "We passed Sphere. We passed the exam. Sa UST tayo mag-aaral" napa-tili na ako. Tumalon-talon na ako sa kama.

I heard him laugh from the other line.

"I know you'll make it. You did great back there, babe."

"You too, Sphere"

Naka-ngiti pa din ako kahit tinapos na namin iyong tawag. My happiness was just too much. Hindi ko mapigilan mapaisip sa mga bagay na pwede naming gawin pag-pasok doon. Masaya ako na si Sphere ay isa sa mga kasama ko sa pagtupad ng gusto ko.

I know, this will be a great future ahead.

"We're so proud of you. This requires a celebration, honey. You should invite Sphere" Mom told me. She was so happy about it. Gusto nyo pa na mag-overnight kami sa isang hotel para lang i-celebrate ito.

Hanggang nagyon hindi ko pa din alam ang bagay na pilit niyang hindi ipina-alam sa amin. It's been a long time already but a part of me was still clueless. I don't know if it was a good thing. Pero kasi, I felt like if I understand what is really happening, mas gugulo lang lalo.

And I don't think I could still handle more complications. I already had enough complex scenarios in my life. I just needed things to be easy. Especially for this day. I didn't want to mess this one up.

Dad smiled at me.

Napatingin sa akin si Kuya Prism habang kumakain kami ng umagahan. I could still see the anger and pain from his eyes. And all of the sudden, the memories of that night came rushing back to me. He was adamant on chasing me back. He was freaking relentless. And maybe, that is my signal to call Sphere.

"I'll call him" I said to them. I should be happy that they are making time for me. I should be, I have to be. Because above all, and for all the mess I've been through, I deserved a little break.