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Keegan
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I convinced myself that there was absolutely no way Jack will be coming back to me after he found out I was pregnant. My baby, whether it will be a boy or a girl, will grow up without a father. Although, I will do anything there is to do to make my baby happy.
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I'm going for an ultrasound today. I was texting Jack telling him he should come.
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Keegan: I have an ultrasound today at Saints. It's at 2:00. Come if you want, it's also your baby.
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The message was read, but not replied. I expected that to happen.
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I was excited to have this baby. I promise to love him or her no matter their decisions. I'm not scared anymore. Having a baby is supposed to be something happy, and I refuse to cry over Jack and what he decides to do.
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Before I went to the hospital, I wanted to go to my parents grave. I quickly got dressed and drove there.
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I walked up to their gravestones and sat down.
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"Mom, Dad. I miss you guys so much. I'm so sorry I didn't get to spend time with you. I'm sorry I shut you both out of my life. But right now, the only thing I need, is you guys. You mean the world to me, both of you. You helped me with everything. And now, I'm all alone. I have nobody. But, I know I can do this, I know I can have this baby. I love you guys with all my heart. I'll see you soon."
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It was quick but meaningful. I knew if I kept on going I would've cried even harder, but I want to show them that I'm strong and I don't need Jack.
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Maybe one day I'll find someone who loves me even more than Jack does. Someone who doesn't leave me just because of a baby. Someone who will treat me right and make me happy.
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But, until then, I have myself.