Han Solo x Reader

An Explanation

Han's POV (Yay!)

I always seemed more at ease when I was flying. Especially after a long dang day, such as today. To everyone else it looked as we had some wins and some losses. But not to me, I was just happy to see her again. I felt bad for the kid, but Ben wasn't someone close to me. It was selfish of me to think that way, and I knew it, but after you see someone you never thought you would see again it's hard to feel too defeated.

I put the Millennium Falcon into autopilot as we entered a new planet atmosphere. I didn't know the name of wherever we were going, all I knew was that it was some Rebel base in the middle of nowhere. Leia seemed to have some big plans she needed to take care of.

"Chewy, I'm leaving the ship to you," I said to Chewbacca.

I stood up and before I even knew it, I was making my way towards (y/n)'s room. What the hell was I going to tell her? She deserved an explanation more than anyone else in the galaxy, but that was the hard part. I didn't even know the full extent of what had happened that night on Tatooine. I thought I had found us a way out of the dust planet, and that's what I was told. Lando promised me a simple test run of the ship, but the next thing I knew I was out cold and tied to a chair. He said we couldn't go back to that planet, that the Empire was destroying small towns like the one I had been staying in.

That only made me want to go back more, to save (y/n), but there was no way. I didn't even know where we were and Lando refused to tell me anything until we were far, far away. I had nightmares about it for ages, I didn't want to accept the fact that I had abandoned my best friend. Just thinking about it now made me sick. I didn't want her to be dead, but I didn't want her to return to the life she told me she hated so much. Yet, there she was, stuck on a Rebel ship receiving royal training for a position she would never hold. Who knows what kind of torture she went through on that ship?

I had reached her room, but I was afraid to go in. That's right folks, the infamous Han Solo, afraid. I let out a sigh, and opened the door. I don't know exactly what I was expecting, but (y/n) sat on the small cot her legs draped over the side, staring at the blank gray wall.

"You know, after someone has been shot it would've been nice to be checked on more than twice," (y/n) said, God I missed her voice.

"Sorry, figured you wouldn't want to see me," I said cautiously.

"That's true, but I still want an explanation. You promised me one after all," she said, staring at me intently.

You remembered that huh? "I guess I did," I said, then I told her everything. It was hard to get out, but it felt good to relieve the burden I had been holding for years.

(Y/n) just stared at the wall for a while. I was beginning to wonder if she was paying attention to anything I had said at all, then she finally spoke.

"This is the ship isn't it? The ship you left in all those years ago," she questioned.

"Yeah..." I said.

"I was found by my family a few days after you left. It wasn't a good predicament, but I suppose it was better than being chased by Sand People every night," she glanced up at me, "I was alone and afraid, even with my family near."

She did it, she smashed my heart into a million little pieces, only I didn't want her to know that. "Well, if you don't want to be lonely anymore. There's always room on the Falcon," I said stupidly.

"Yeah now you say that. Well there's no sense in dwelling in the past. Help me up, I want to talk to everyone. My sister in particular."

I walked over near her and draped my arm around her shoulders, supporting her weight so she could at least semi-walk with her wounded leg.

"You know, Luke has been in here to check on me more than my own sister. It's nice, but he seems kind of obsessed. I don't really mind... we all have different ways of coping with things," (y/n) said into my ear.

I smiled, jumbled memories rushed into my head. "Yeah, but I'm not too impressed with your coping skills. Running away and destroying things, isn't always the best way to go," I said.

(Y/n) laughed, and it was the best sound I had heard in ages. In that moment, I was given hope. Hope that everything would go back to normal, maybe even a little better than normal. 

Hello everyone! So here is the way, way shortened version of what I had until my computer crashed. Super frustrating!!! However I apologize, but I really didn't want to take the time to redo all of the things I had done. I'll make it up to you guys somehow. Anyways, hope you enjoyed, please vote and comment thanks! –Vamp Lover