Take me back

3.

THIS MAY OR MAY NOT BE TRIGGERING BUT IF YOU ARE TRIGGERED EASILY BY MENTIONS OF SUICIDE AND DEATH, THEN DONT READ.

I wake up the next morning and look around. We were still in the kitchen, sat on the floor, Dan asleep on my lap.

I stroke his head and play with his hair gently, careful not to wake him up. He was so beautiful.

I hum quietly to myself, pondering if I should move or not.

Dan finally stirs, awakening.

"Morning angel" I whisper to him

He rubs his eyes and looks up at me "What happened...why are we in the kitchen?"

I hesitate "Uhm. You broke down last night."

He fidgets awkwardly "oh. I remember."

I nod and turn away. "You seemed really upset"

"Listen Phil...I just....I'm not sure if I should tell you."

"Well if you're getting that upset about it, you probably need to."

He closes his eyes and sits up, putting his head in his hands.

"I-I..." He chokes back tears

I rub his back encouragingly "It's okay. I won't judge you or leave you. I'm here"

He turns to me and puts his arms round me, cuddling me, still say on my lap on the floor of the kitchen.

I wrap my arms around him and make him feel safe until he is ready to speak again.

"I-uh- I tried to kill myself when you were gone." He says weakly and breaks down again.

This breaks my heart. My face crumbles as I put my head on his shoulder. All I could hear was him sobbing and it made it worse, i hated the noise, it broke my heart.

"It's okay." I say before tears start travelling down my face "it's okay" I repeat quietly

"I'm sorry..." He manages through tears

"Don't be sorry. You have no reason to be. Why did this happen?"

"I can't imagine a life without you Phil. It hurts too much. I missed you. I don't want to live without you." He whispers

"Dan.....I only left because I thought it would be good for the both of us but obviously not."

"Again, I'm really sorry. I know I have so much to live for but to tell you the truth, you're my main reason to live. You pulled me through the worst time of my life a few years back. You can't go now."

What he says is precious. I saved his life and I have to save it again. He was in a bad state of mind a few years ago, I brought him out of it but it hurt that he had practically relapsed, yet as far as I knew, he had never tried to commit suicide.

"Shhh...I won't leave. I won't leave" I kiss his neck reassuringly and hug him closer "I promise I won't ever leave."

A/N
I'm sorry for a short chapter but I had a bit of a writer's block this week. I hope you enjoyed and I have a longer chapter planned for next week. Don't forget to vote and comment and recommend. It really helps me out :)