Take me back

7.

I wake up the next morning and to my surprise Dan's head is rested on my chest and our legs are entwined.

I hold my breath, unsure what to do.  If Dan wakes up now he would surely freak out and think I had arranged this to happen. I slowly slip my legs to the side and turn around, letting Dan's head flop onto the pillow.

Thankfully he was a heavy sleeper and didn't wake up but I decide to slip out of bed anyway.

I sigh as I shut the door to Dan's room. My feelings were all over the place. One minute I felt stupid and childish that I had let Dan go like that but the next I was feeling like we were better off just friends. I didn't know how to feel and I didn't know how Dan felt either. Would he take me back? I would never know, as far as I knew he didn't want to get back together, but I couldn't help but wonder.

I wanted to go on a walk to clear my head but then I also didn't want to leave Dan with the two little monkeys. I had done enough of that.

So I decided to take them with me. We would just take a walk to the park maybe or somewhere quiet where they can run around and I can think.

I scribble Dan a note for when he wakes up, something along the lines of 'don't be worried, I'm taking the kids out for some fresh air.'

The kids were no doubt already awake, it was past 6:00, their usual wake up time and I could hear them playing inside their room.

I open the door and gesture for them to be quiet.

"Morning sweethearts!" I whisper "Daddy's still asleep so try not to be too loud!"

Winnie runs over to me and Dil toddles over, both giving me a hug.

"Morning daddy!" They both greet and I scoop them up into a hug

"Do you fancy going to the park? Or for a run around?" I ask them

"Yeah!" Dil says enthusiastically and Winnie nods

I giggle "let's get some breakfast though. You can't run around on an empty stomach!"

We get breakfast, Cheerios for them and Shreddies for me. I finish first and put my dish in the sink. I turn back to my kids and Dil has spilt his dish on the floor, milk and Cheerios splattered everywhere.

"Oh no." I chuckle "I shouldn't laugh but you get it from me Dil, your clumsiness,"

I clean it up and soon we're ready to leave the house.

"Ready kids?"

"Yeah!" They both whisper, excited, smiles on their cute little faces.

"Okay, take daddy's hand, I don't want to lose you."

***

"Daddy look!" I turn to see Dil and Winnie racing across field, trying to claim first place.

Dil toddles behind Winnie, happily following her, not really sure what's going on.

It was quite a cold morning but none of us really minded. It felt fresh and good.

I clap and grin "Well done! High fives for everyone." I say, giving them both a high five each. I sit down on a bench and pull them both onto my knees.

I hug them close to my chest.

"What would you do if me and daddy didn't live together anymore?" I asked them cautiously

"Cry forever!" Winnie exclaims

"What about you Dil?"

He thinks and looks at me, his eyes shining. "Be sad."