I won't wait (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 35 part 2

I find it amusing that he was planning a date for the two of us. Why did he even think that I would've gone? I probably wouldn't have. He looked ashamed to admit it, but he shouldn't be. I'm not here to scrutinize his decisions. "Derek -"

"No,I get it. Look I really do; You're with Chad now, but ..." He took a deep breath with tears collecting in his eyes. Please don't cry. He faced away from me trying to hide his emotions, but I could still see the way his face scrunched up in sorrow. You don't have to be sad. I looked up at the white walls behind him, it felt wrong to stare at him while he was vulnerable. Don't even shed a tear. He cares for me much more than I would've ever believed he could. I came towards his bed and sat near him placing a hand on his cheek. He's hurting, because of me. I'm sorry.

"I'm not with Chad". He looked up at me in confusion. His eyes looked unbelieving, yet his posture held an ounce of hope. "It would've never worked, and I think I always knew that". I ran with the best option, but not the one I love. Derek should've always been the only option. I sighed feeling immensely tired. All of this has put a strain on my life. Moving here has changed everything for me, especially the type of man that I once believed I'd fall in love with. "I want to be with you".

I could feel the relief flow through both of us after I said those six words, who knew they could hold so much power. He pulled my face towards his and looked into my eyes most likely searching for any deceit. There is none, you have my love. I smiled showing him that I wouldn't lie, I couldn't, I love him. He smiled and laughed letting out tears of happiness as he pulled me into a bone crushing hug. "God how I've missed you". He didn't let me go, and that was fine. I didn't want him to. I've missed you too my love.