⭐️Jaxx's PoV ⭐
👺️WARNING: MALEXMALE RELATIONSHIPS, DRUGS ABUSE, RAPE AHEAD !!! IF YOU DONT LIKE THOSE THEMES PLEASSE DO NOT READ THIS!!!!!!! 👺
✖️Setting: The sun was setting in the sky, as Jaxx was coming out of the Holixx club, where he had partied the night away drinking away all the retreats he carried in his mind, and trying to forget the man he loved., and had lost for ever. Keep in mind: Aziel and Jaxx are both demons ( incubi), yet Jaxx does not know whats up with him. Before this short story happened Jaxx was taken appart from Gavin, his lover when they where about to run away together and start a new life away from their broken homes. Yet gavin never showed up, and Jaxx lost his mind, unable to comprehed why his lover would disapear and betray the future they had planned together. Trying to forget Jaxx hit rock bottom, and commited many mistakes. This is his wake up call before he encounters Gavin again. ✖️
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After a long night of parting it was time to go home. I could feel the alcohol getting to me as the floor and walls seemed to move as I walked. I was surprised that after a bottle of vodka I was still standing. Even thought for many drinkers that would be a blessing for me it was one hell of a curse. After all I wanted was to forget, let reality slip away as I found some temporary escaped from reality. But what I really wanted was to escape it forever. Lately that had been my routine, day in and day out, that is ever since I l lost Gavin. He was the only one I ever loved, and now he was gone. It was like nothing else matter anymore. I took my usual route as I walked pass by a empty store covered wall to wall in glass. There I could see my beaten up reflection. My tired eyes had bags under them, and in my face I carried the bruises and cuts from my last fight. Before i used to hide them, now I carried them as trophies of my victories . My bangs had gotten rather long and where completely covering my right eye. At least that made it easier to hide the fact that they where different colors, I was tired to been called a freak all the time. Yet even under the strong effects of the alcohol I was conscious of my surroundings, and to make it worst I was horny. I was disgusted of myself. Even after all that had happen, all the suffering i felt, my body still managed to get it up and crave sex, even more than before. I bit my lip as I let my fist pound the glass in front of me, shattering my reflection into millions of pieces. After the image was destroyed, I could feel my knuckles burning. An other wound to add to my collection. I walked a few blocks down, to the usual place. There my usual dealer awaited me. I could feel a smirk creeping in my lips. It was what I needed. I handed him a couple of hundred dollars, as he handed me a paper bag full of needles. " I added some weed as an extra for being such a solid costumer" he said as he tucked the rolled bills inside his pocket " later" he said low in his breath as he walked away into the shadows. Right there in the empty alley I pressed my back against the wall, letting my body fall under it's on weight. I lifted the sleeves of my jacket revealing my bruised up arms. I been using for quite a while, yet I had to hide it at work. I gripped the bandana I had in my neck, unwrapping it and placing around my arm, just a little above my elbow joint. I thighly tied it around my arm, pulling it with my teeth making it as thigh as I could using it as a torque. In the dim lighting I could see my artery popping up. I was seconds away from ultimate escape, at least for a couple of hours. With my free hand I gripped a needle from the bag as squeezed out a bit of the yellowish liquid it had inside, making sure there was no air inside of it. Right there I injected myself making sure not to reopen any of the other needle marks I had made on myself the last few days. As the liquid entered my body I slowly released the torque and broke into laughter. If only Gavin could see me now, what would he say? I slowly got up as I put the paper bag inside my messenger and clumsily walked out of the alley, stumbling on my feet. I could feel the floor was moving as I leaned against a display window of a cloth store. I looked into my pocket for my pack if cigarets and slowly drove one to my lip, as I lit it up. I looked down to my hand and saw I was bleeding still. "Shit" I murmured as I gripped a handkerchief of my pocket and wrapped it around my hand covering the wound. There from across the street I could see a dark haired man walking my way. I tried to keep myself standing as I pulled down my sleeves. Last thing I needed was some idiot calling the cops on me. As I looked up I could not see the man anymore. It was as if he had vanished in fin air. I looked around me just to make sure. Then out of nowhere I felt some arms wrapping themselves around me. I wanted to screen but he had covered my mouth. After that I lost consciousness. I don't know how much time it passed before I opened my eyes again. When I did I was in a bed with my arms cuffed over my head. There across the room I could see the outline of some legs sitting in the shadows covered in leader pants and boots. From in between the shadows some crimson orbs shined as a cigarette was lit. " look what you have become...nothing more than a junky " he said in a deep profound voice that I had heard before but could not remember from where . I was too high to even remember my name. " and your starving too " he said as he approached me, and gripped my face, yet I still could not see his which was hidden away in the darkness. " I am not hungry " I told him as I shifted my head to the side looking away. "Oh that's not the hunger I meant " he said pressing his knee against my crouch " your even hard after all the junk you put in your body , amazing " he said as his voice trailed off into a demonic laughter " mind if I play with you for a bit?" He teased as he drove his hand down on me and slowly caresses my budge over the fabric of my jeans. I tried to kick him off but he covered himself faster than my kick could hit him. " fightsy aren't we ?" He said as he took a needle off his jacket and drove it to my vein " this will help you loosen up the koch , after all you like injecting yourself don't you ?" " you ...what are you done to me ?" I screemed feeling the area I was getting injected in getting warm. I could feel my whole body getting warm as my vision became hazy " it's liquid ecstasy mixed with a sedative , thought you would like it " he added as I could feel my him undoing my jeans . I tried to break free but it was impossible The male looked directly into my eyes as he said in a demon tone " you will sit still and do as your told " After that my body no longer responded me. I tried keeping my eyes open but my vision was blurred. I could feel his fingers entering me as they stretched my insides, getting me ready for him. I bit my lip when I realized I was about to get rapped. " I fucking hate you..." I told him as I tried to hold back my moans. The ecstasy running throughout me was making me want this. I could feel my staff curling up awaiting release. I could feel his gloves fingers wrapping themselves around my staff as they started stroking me "when I get out of this I swear to god I'll kill you " I screamed angrily. " I would love to see you try "he said as he looked directly at me. Before I knew it he had entered me and started fucking me roughly. I could not contains my moans as I closed my eyes. " gav... " I said low on my breath as I could feel my peek rising and my eyes getting filled with tears. It was not long until I passed out. I woke up as the sun rays entered the window. As I open my eyes I found myself in the room, but the strange man was gone. I slowly tried to sat up but my bottom hurt almost as bad as my head from my hangover. I could not remember anything. Next to the bed there was a letter next to a pack of cigarets and a metal lighter. " stop being an idiot Jacob. Room is payed off for a few days, food included. I expect you to put yourself together once your back on your feet " it said as it had no name singed in the bottom. For a moment I stood there wondering if what had happened was a dream or simply a crazy night. I had no idea who that man was or what he wanted from me. Still to this day I carry the cuff marks on my wrist.
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