Loving a 'Degrassi' Boy

Does He Know?

"Oh." I said, getting out of his lap. Putting the food away quickly before grabbing my purse and the basket and walking quickly toward the car. I felt like I did something wrong. Maybe I moved to fast. Maybe he didn't feel the same. Or maybe I wasn't good enough for him. I heard his foot steps quickly coming up behind me. He grabbed my wrist, turning me around. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you. Now let's eat dessert. Then maybe we can leave."he said his eyes soft, making my heart melt.

"Ya, sure." I said handing him the basket grabbing his free hand pulling him toward our blanket. He set the basket down taking out the cake. I ate three bites then I was done. I didn't want to have to puke too much. "You okay?" He asked simpathticly

"Ya, fine!" I said, smiling at him. He shoved some cake in his mouth then put his fork down. "Promise me you are okay. I don't understand why you aren't eating. I've seen you eat a strawberry, a piece of watermelon, and three bites of cake. I was with you at lunch you didn't eat anything. This isn't healthy. Most people would be shaking or feeling sick, but you seemed like it didn't bother you to not eat. Explain this please."he said, I could tell he was worried.

"I ate a big breakfast. I promise I'm fine." I said lying. I didn't eat breakfast , I never eat breakfast, or lunch, and I only eat dinner once a week. But he couldn't know that.

"Okay, I believe you!" He said. It hurt to lie to him. I was pretty close to crying but if I cried he would know I was lying. "We should go. We have a big day tomorrow." I said looking down at the ground.

"Ya." He said. Blowing out the candles before throwing them in the basket. I stood up, grabbing my purse and the blanket. I really didn't want to end the date but I couldn't risk breaking done in front of him. I walked to his car he popped the trunk and I threw the blanket in and slid into the passenger set. I put the address in his GPS, so he could find my house. He pulled up "bye. See you tomorrow. I meet you at the front of the set at 8, okay?"

He asked leaning over and pecking my check, leaving a hot spot. "Perfect, bye!" I said, then opened the door and sliding out. I had to shower and get an outfit ready go tomorrow, but not before I got rid of all that shit I ate. I puked then pulled off my dress and turned on the water. I got in the shower letting the warm water cover my body. I was feeling dizzy so I quickly washed my hair and body so I could get to bed. I shut off the water and cold attacked me. I dried my body before wrapping my towel around my bony frame. I grabbed a pair I skinny jeans, a pair of mid calf boots, a burn-out tank top, and a tube top to go underneath out of my closet laying them at the foot. Then pulled on my pajamas and crawled in to bed.