Rants.

My bones are chilled to the core and my mind is racing a million miles

The people around me talk and chatter like early birds in the morning. We were all hoarded into a room where we watched and listen to a video message of the broken past. I couldn't focus for the life of me. My eyes shot around the room like a wild flower and that's when my eyes meet yours. You sat there, slouched, eyes fixed to the video whispering something softly under your breathe. What I may ask was going through your head? I looked behind you to find the people that you hangout with snickering to each other as if laughing at the fact that people actually seemed to care about the video. And beside them sat the boy with the end graves dimples and the moppy hair. He had his dark hoodie up like he was trying to erase the fact that he was even there... Quietly he thought, his thoughts seemed to eat him alive like a mummy. Maybe he was thinking or maybe he was just plain stupid, I honestly will never know. We had an encounter yesterday that left me baffled and confused. You see these boys have an effect on people that makes them want to do bad things. Good girl bad things? No. That's not how the story goes... Bad boy supposed to fall for good girl and they live happily ever after... Wrong. The basketball I was playing with managed to run over to you like w e were playing tag and I was it. He stopped what he was doing Picked it up and lingered there. What on earth is up with this boy? My thoughts went crying back to reality when I felt another pair of eyes on me. With my head still in the clouds I looked to were the source was coming from.. And to my surprise it was the boy with the orange backpack. He looked like the little creature that lived in your closet and protected you from monsters. He was the one you wanted to get to know.. The one you would do stupid shit with. You see my heads been in a numb haze for awhile now and I would much rather be happy and glim a million colors.. But sadly I am gray and as dark as the poor little puddle in the street. Hopefully one day the little creatures will jump out and invite me to tea.. Maybe that will be the time meant for me. They say everything happenes for a reason.. But they are wrong oh so wrong. My bones are chilled to the core and my heart is racing a million miles not everything happens for a reason.. Don't live like that my dear.. Take everyday to a new extreme and remember things happen because you make them happen.