Before You Leave // Phan

14. Thank You

I guess what I really want to say is, thank you.

Thank you Phil.

Why? For so many reasons.

Thank you for not pushing me away in the beginning when I first tried getting your attention.

Thank you for talking to me, getting to know me and letting me into your life.

Thank you for letting me get to know you, for telling me things you wouldn't dare tell anyone else, for letting me know that you've had your ups and downs and weren't always happy because you also had some bad days.

Thank you for being for there for me, for accepting that I wasn't in the best shape went we first started talking.

Thank you for trying to help me, for trying to cheer me up and telling me that one day I would be able to look back and say I made it.

Thank you for meeting me at the train station and hugging me tightly, telling me that you were glad you got to meet me.

Thank you for accepting to live with me because it really is a big decision to move out of your parents place and start actually living.

Thank you for being my best friend. I've had many people in my life come and go and none actually stay. You stayed despite my breakdowns, my laziness, me.

Thank you for accepting me as I am. That really does mean a lot because I can tell you right now that I am a fucking mess and you would agree but also tell me it's fine because so were you.

Thank you for loving me. All those years, you easily could have stayed silent and kept it to yourself but you let it out and told me that you loved me, you cared and you wanted to be more than just friends.

Thank you for letting me love you, as well. You let me show you how much I love you by doing the weirdest or cheesiest things like buying you flowed on Valentine's Day or making massive parties on your birthday.

Thank you for giving me space when I needed it. You knew that I would need my space at times and you gave me all the time I needed to be alone and think.

Thank you for pulling me in and holding me close when I wanted it. I never did like to say what I wanted but you knew me well enough to know just by looking at me and you have helped me so much.

Thank you so much for being honest. I think honesty is very important. You know that. When I asked you to marry me, you could've said yes and lived with me forever even if you knew you didn't want that. You could've done it to please me.

But you didn't. You were 100% honest and I really am thankful you were because I wouldn't be happy if you weren't. You told me the truth, that you loved me but just not that way.

Thank you for sticking with me through all this and for remaining the Phil that I love. I got to watch you grow up as a person and I am so thankful I got to spend seven years with you.

Thank you so much Phil.