Before You Leave // Phan

15. Before You Leave

I know- actually, it is kind of ridiculous that I'm writing all this to you when you know it happened, you could remember all this on your own and have it in your mind but I'm still writing.

And I have a reason.

Before you leave to live with your new boyfriend, I want to say a few things.

I love you. I don't think I'll ever love someone like I love you but if I move on, that's okay. I just want you to know that I love you, I am so madly in love with you, your personality, your laugh and smile, the way you look in the morning after a good night's sleep, the way you looked at me when you told me you loved me, the way you held me in your arms and let me cry when I needed it.

I'll never find someone like you, I know that for sure. You are one of a kind Phil, there will never be anyone to replace you or be close to how brilliant you were.

I'm going to miss you. I'm going to miss knowing that whenever I woke up, I would have someone to look forward to, someone to talk to about my dreams or someone to eat cereal with.

You were and are such a big part of my life, I'm going to miss you so fucking much.

I want you to know that no matter what, and I really do mean it, no matter what, I am going to be there for you, I am always going to be here for you.

If something happens and you need someone, I'm here. I'm not moving out of this flat I've come to love and learn to live in with you so if you ever need it, your room will be available.

When you walk out the door for the last time, I want you to know you can come back anytime for any reason.

No matter what happens, Phil, I'm going to be here for you. I will be your best friend until the end.

And again, thank you for everything. Thank you for sticking with me for this long. Thank you for being honest, for understanding, for making me happy and for helping me.

Before you leave, I want you to remember everything. Just give it a thought, remember I'm going to be here to help if you ever need it and remember everything we had together.

Before you leave, I'm going to watch you grab your last things and look at me excitedly whilst I look for a place to put this note for you.

Before you leave, I'm going to wish you good luck and hope you're happy, hope you have a good life.

And before you leave, I'm going to hold my arms wide open and hug you tightly just like you hugged me when we met at the train station.

Then I'm going to let you go, say bye and close the door to start over again, alone this time.

Dear Phil Lester,
I love you and I hope your new boyfriend treats you the way you deserve to be treated. Good luck.

Dan.

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The End.

Ayy sorry for breaking anyone's heart omg here, have a cookie and a blanket, thank you for reading!

And hey, I didn't kill anyone in this! @ people who thought I killed him; Phil isn't dead :') woo!

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It was a short one, sorry but I kind of like it, whoops >~<

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