My Dream Life

Now what?

Another day comes around and it starts just like every other day. Nothing extraordinary happens until I get to school. When I get there with Jordan almost everyone talks to me.
"Good Morning Jade" some random girls say to me
"Good Morning..." I answer back looking way too curious
Only Emily and some other guys don't talk to me. I'm curious as fuck and I ask my friends if they know what's going on or if it's some kind of prank.
"No, Jade we don't know! We are as clueless as you are." Ally says
"Maybe we should ask someone" James says
"Yes but who?" I ask
"Someone we trust" Jordan says
We see a girl passing by so Jordan grabs her and asks if she knows why is everyone talking to me and acting so weird.
"It's because of your blog honey" that girl says
"My blog? You mean, they've read it?"
"Of course they have! Everyone has!"
I suddenly felt happy and excited! Everyone in my school had read my blog. Who would've though this was even possible? Definitely not me.
The day passes without much stuff happening so I go home. Once I arrive I open my laptop to see what going on in my blog. What I see has me so surprised. 500 views on my latest blog!! I'm so happy, I can't even describe it! I start reading the comments and I realize that each and every one of them is sweeter than the other. I can't contain my emotions so I start crying from happiness. I had promised I'd read all the comments to see what they want me to write next so that's what I'm going to do right now. I see many interesting ideas but I didn't really want to write about them. Suddenly I see one comment that says : "Dear Jade, my name is Allison and I think your blog is pretty amazing. I would like you to write some reasons that make girls not to feel confident and tell us what do you suggest as a solution"
That comment made me realize how much I could affect other people. I want to make a list of these things and publish it as soon as possible. But there's a slight problem: I'm insecure about myself probably more than anyone out there. I still have to do it though! I open my blog and start writing.
"Dear readers,
Hello again. How are you doing? I'm so happy that many of you like my blogs and are commenting stuff on my page. I saw many different and interesting ideas for my blog and I promise I'll make all of them happen. But I saw a comment from a girl that asked me to write some reasons on why girls feel insecure. I found that so interesting because all of us feel that way at some point of our lives and because I wanna be honest with you, let me tell you that I feel more insecure than anyone here so....
Anyways these are my top 5 reasons on why this happens:
1) everyone expects from us to have good grades because we are girls
2) we should always be pretty no matter how we feel or what we want to wear
3) we are supposed to have the perfect body type and look just like everyone else
4) we need to have a cute boyfriend
5) we need to belong to the popular squad because otherwise our opinions don't matter

These are my top 5 reasons and I think that every girl has struggled with at least one of them!!! But no matter how you feel every moment you need to realize that it doesn't matter what everyone else thinks about you! You're perfect just the way you are and don't listen to anyone saying the opposite. You're beautiful and I love you!
Hope you liked this one and I can't wait to read your opinions and suggestions!
Bye for now, Jade"
And... Post
Pfff that was hard! I know I've struggled through everyone of those reasons. First of all I don't have that perfect body type so that doesn't help me feel confident enough. And let's not forget that I don't have a boyfriend and I've never had one! I'm 18 and I don't have a boyfriend! I've never had my first kiss and no one should know that because that would be embarrassing! There is this boy that I like, his name is Adam and he is the same age as me!
I've liked him since 7th grade but I was never brave enough to talk to him. We only talked last year where our science teacher made us work together. It was the weirder week of my entire life and I think I embarrassed myself to him. He probably thinks of me as a weirdo now. My friends say that I should talk to him and try to get to know him but this is so hard for me because I don't have any confidence in myself.
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Woke up to the screams of my little sister today... She was arguing with my mother on whether she should go the football game with her friends this afternoon or not.
I got out of bed, got dressed and went down to eat breakfast. After a while Jordan knocks on the door which means it's time to go!
"Bye mum, bye dad" I say
"Bye!!" Daddy answers

"Hello Jordan"
"Good morning "
"How are you?" I ask
"Pretty good, and you?"
"Really nice! My blog had 500 views yesterday so I wrote again! I'm so excited that it gets bigger and bigger so fast"
"Omg that's so awesome!"he says
After we meet our other friends they all stop me and say:
"We need to talk to you " they say
"Did I do something wrong?" I answer back
"No" Jordan says laughing
"We think that now you've become more known in the school...." Ally says
"You should talk to Adam" James interrupts and finishes her thought
"What? No, no, no...That can't happen" I say
"Why??"
"Because he won't even talk to me and there's nothing to talk about"
"You can find an excuse! Like let your books fall in front of him" Taylor says
"I don't think I can do this guys! You know I can never talk to him without turning red or loosing my words" I say
"You can do it Jade and you know we'll always be there for you no matter what. Besides you're a blogger now and he probably knows you!" James says
"We'll see" I answer quickly trying to avoid the conversation
*bell rings*
"See you later guys" I say to them
I walk my way to Mr Johnson's classroom and when I reach the door Adam is here at the same time! I try to pass without looking at him but then I trip and drop my books on him. My worst nightmare has happened. I feel so bad but before I even try to apologize he runs away and never looks at me for the entire day! Omg what have I done? Now I have no freaking chance with him. My life is ruined for good!