Natalie's Journey: Saving Daniel (on hold until...)

Chapter 2: Bringing me to Him

                                              1 John 3:17

"But whoever has the world's goods, and beholds his brother in need and closes his heart against him, how does the love of God abide in him?"

Chapter 2:

I glance up at Daniel pleadingly through my lashes as the rain begins to soak into my coat. I can feel myself begin to shiver from the cold. I have to get out of here. I have to get away from Daniel right now before he strings me along into more trouble.

He was the first person that I purposely cut off from my past because of the power he had always had over me. He was the only one who could manipulate me with such ease and get me to do what ever it is that he wanted. Even now I can still feel the power radiating off of him. It is this reason why he is so dangerous to me. Out of all the people I have ever come to known, he was the only one with the power to make me succumb to his wishes. If there was anyone that could bring me back to the life I use to know, it would be him.

It's these reasons why I have gone out of my way to avoid him and now just by chance all of it is thrown out the window as I accidentally bump into him again and after so long. I left him behind because I didn't want him to have a hold on my life anymore but yet here I stand face to face with him again. God why have you brought me to him?

"So what brings Miss Holy to such a deceitful place of hell?" he continues to mock me. I try to move out of his grasp but he's stronger than me and he doesn't even budge when he can see I am nervous and uncomfortable. 

He knows that he holds some part of me in my hand and he knows the power he still has over me and if I know him well enough by now, and I'm sure that I do, then he'll use it against me and ultimately destroy my relationship with Christ. He had the potential to do so and he knows it which makes me fear all the more.

"Let go Daniel." I whimper. "I don't have time for this."

He laughs aloud bitterly as he stares at me with a harsh glare, "Yeah you made it clear that you don't have time for me anymore when you walked away from me and never looked back."

His words make an impact to my heart. They sting. I had no idea that he even cared that I left but clearly it hurt him. I can't help the guiltiness that sinks in but I have to remind myself that I don't owe him nothing whether I left him or stayed. I owe him nothing.

"I don't owe you an explanation." I utter my thoughts.

He releases me and takes a step back. "I don't need any explanation. I know you left me in the dust for a saviour that doesn't even exist. Did you ever stop and think how leaving would affect my life? You selfish b*tch." he yells out in frustration, making it clear that he's in pain.

"Daniel." I whisper and try to reach out to him but he flinches back as if I had some type of disease. "I didn't know you cared."

He shakes his head and covers his hurt with the usual smirk, "Oh I cared all right. You just never noticed. It doesn't matter anymore though. I realized that you're not worth it and look I have survived perfectly fine without you, haven't I?"

Sadness fills my soul at his statement. I needed to get away from him and his crowd back then. He was right. I never did stop to think how my leaving could affect his life. We use to be close to a certain extent but that never really mattered to me as much as it must of to him.

"Daniel I never meant to-"

"Save it Natalie. Like I said I survived these years just fine without you. I sure as hell don't need you apology now though I am sure your sister might need it." he laughs but knowing him it was just a way to get under my skin like he always managed to do.