Love Is Tough, But It's Contagious

Chapter 15: What Do You Expect Me To Do?

*Hayley*

"What can I do to get you to talk?" He asks annoyed.

I simply ignore him.

He wants answers. But those are answers I can not give him.

"Lenni, speak to me. I just wanna know."

Silence.

"My God, what fucking happened?" He shouts.

"What do you want?" I ask glumly as I stare at a blank wall in a white room while Jonner and Jacob stood outside and watching me from a window.

Perfect time for a song isn't it? Paramore to be precise.

I'm sitting in a room 

Made up of only big white walls 

And in the hall there's people looking through 

The window window  

No they know exactly what they're here for

Don't look up 

Just let them think that there's no place else you'd rather be 

And now 

You can't turn back because this road is all you'll ever hav-

My inner Parawhore was interrupted as he started talking.

"I wanna know what made you break up with N-" I glare at him.

"Don't speak about him around me!" I shout interrupting him as I get up and begin walking around annoyed.

"Why not?" He asks narrowing his eyebrows. "I just wanna know what happened to the girl who was Truely, Madly, Deeply in love with Niall Horan."

I scream and punch the wall. "You don't fucking understand!" I scream punching the wall again. Satisfied when I heard a crack.

He jumps up to help my now throbbing hand but I shoo him away. "I'm fine." I glare.

He sighs in defeat. "What made you break up with Ni-" I interrupt again.

"You don't know. You don't know." I whisper. "No one knows." I cradle my hand.

"What Lenni?"

"What do you fucking want Nathan?!" I shout pissed. "You wanna know why I broke up with Niall! Huh? I bet you so fucking curious right!" I yell taking a deep breath. "I fucking broke his heart, cause it finally became clear!" I scream. "He deserves better. Better than a poser emo. A depressed girl!" I scream the taboo secret out.

I sink to the floor. "He hates me now. I broke his heart when I promised I wouldn't ever. But the thing is." I take a deep breath. "The press, the gossip, the haters. They're all right." I wipe the silent tears that flowed down. "Niall DOES deserve better."

"Well, why haven't you picked up any of the lads calls?" Nathan changed the subject.

"It." I stare at the white walls. "It reminds me of him. And how I broke his heart." I whisper. "I love him so much that it hurts." I stand up. "I wish I didn't break up with him. But it was for the best." I whisper. "I wanted so bad to grow old with him and get a nice big house surrounded by millions of trees and then build a giant treehouse so that our kids could go there and ignore all the lovey dovey crap we would do. They could have electricity and plumbing and have a house but ya know." I smile thinking about it. "In the trees!" I chirp happily.