Fix Me

Chapter 14

Tori's P.O.V

Standing at the airport tears stream down my face as I hug my father to me, for today is the day I leave to go to NYU. Jace and Jenni stand next to me saying goodbye to Jenni's parents since Jace's parents moved last year they couldn't attend. Jayden had left the previos day to the unniversity of Winsconsin where he will be studying law as for Jace he decided to become a teacher as it was his chidhood dream. Jenni being pregnant with his children decided to move to New York with us and become a housewife. We all got apartments in the same building living right next to each other, since our parents are rich they are supporting us financily till we graduate and get jobs. As for me, I decided to become a counselor so I will be studying for the next five years to achieve my dream, finally letting go of my dad after hearing that we have to get on the plane, we bid our goodbyes and with a backward glance, okay a few backward glances and a lot of tears we finally get on the plane and within a few minutes we are off. Putting my earphones in I listhen to music while thinking. Jace left yesterday and I didn't even know. On christmas night I gave my virginity to him and since then he has been distant a lot, finally having enough of his attitude I went to his house and his mom informed me that he left for Wisconsin about two hours ago, he didn't even bother telling me or saying goodbye. The thing that hurts the most is that he just left, I had thought that he loved me but I geuss that he was only playing me like an instrument and like any instrument I played to his tune. Now I am on a plain headed to New York with a broken haert, I just wish that he had never left me.
After six agonizing hours spend on the plain listhening to an old women talk about her grandchildren I am about ready to commit murder just to get away from her constant babble in my ears. Controling my anger this long I am just about ready to snap when the flight attendent announced that we are about to land. Sighing in relieve I buckle in my seatbelt and ready for the landing. Picking up our luggange we get in the limousine my father had oh so generously bestowed upon us we head to our appartment ready to kick back and sleep the jet lag away. Opening my apartment I bid one last goodnight to Jace and Jenni and head inside, closing and locking the door I switch on the lights and turn around and before I can stop myself a gasp of surprise leaves my lips as I behold the most stunning sight infront of me. The appartment is colour coded black and red while the walls are a light lime green color, my three favourite colours thought only Jace, Jenni and Jayden knows, at the reminder of him a sad sigh escapes me and immediatly tears threaten to engulf me but I swallow it back and head futher inside to see what the place looks like, after cruising around my appartment to see everything I head upstaires and head to the master bedroom. Opening the door a gasp once again leaves me stunned at the beauty and magnifigance infront of me, like the rest of my appartment my room is beautifull and I can't help but drink it all in. Showering quikly I quikly change out of my towel into short shorts and a tank top before sliding into bed, before my head even reaches the pillow I am out like a candle in the wind and immediatly thrust into endless dreams about Jayden telling me that he doesn't love me and that he only dated me for my virginity and then leaving me there crying on the floor, the whole night I rolled around while dreaming this over and over again. Waking up the next morning I can barely open my eyes, after ten minutes of struggeling to open them I finally manage to open them and head to the bathroom, looking in the  mirror the sight infront of me that greets me would have sent anyone running but waking up like this since Jayden has been blowing me off mearly makes me want to cry again, my eyes are swolen and red making me realize that I must have cried in my sleep, my hair that's usually neat in the mornings when I wake up is hanging everywhere. Sighing I turn away and get in the shower. After getting out I put on black skinny jeans, a black shirt and black tommys, brushing my hair I put it in a high pony tail and head back to the bathroom to put on some make-up, putting on some consealer to hide the bags under my eyes I put on black eye shadow, black eyeliner and then mascara I head to the door to go hunt down some food but not before grabbing my purse. After walking arounf for ten minutes I find a small diner and head inside hoping with all my might that the food is good. Ordering a oreo milkshake, fries and a burger I settle down when the waiter brings me my food, looking down I see a note next to my food with a number and a name with a call me and a winky face scribled on it, used to this I tear up the note infront of the waiter and watch as his face falls, after the disgrunteld waiter left me I dig into my food and immediatly a moan threatens to escape my mouth but me being aware of the customers around me I hold it in and swallow another mouthfull of food. After eating and having to hold in every moan that threatend to escape I pay and head out the door planning to go do some shopping since I want to look my best tomorow when my first day at NYU starts. Going to the mall I shop on end for four hours and only stop when my stomache grumbles for food. Heading to the cafeteria I order some nachos with fries and a bubblegum milkshake. Finishing up I head out with all my bags and hail down a taxi. Giving him my addres I sit back and patiently wait to get home. After paying the driver I get out with all my bags and head inside the elevator, pressing number ten I wait for the elevator to take me to my apartment. Unlocking my door I head to my room to unpack all my clothes that I bought and the clothes that I brought with me from Londen. Unpacking all my clothes and shoes only took me two hours. Heading downstaires and ploping on the couch I look around and immediatly boredness overtakes me, at that moment I wish Jayden was here with me, at that thought the tears that I have been controling the whole day suddenly comes out and there is nothing to stop it. I wish that he was here, he would have known what to do, we would be lying on the couch cuddeling while watching a movie or just thinking, talking or just enjoying each others company.