You & I (N.H)

Chapter 20 of You & I: Forever Is A Long Time

(Nicole's POV)

I'm the reason Harry Styles and Liam Payne are on a life boat. I'm the reason Niall Horan has got bitten by a shark, I'm the reason Louis Tomlinson is going to die.

I broke into sobs, remembering how simple my life used to be. How I would run around with Mia playing tag or Hide n' go Seek when we where young. How going to my grandmothers house for my birthday would make me so happy, Seeing all of their smiles. How in the 4th grade when i used to have crushes on the hottest kids. How Mia and I would build a treehouse then have a sleepover in it and gossip all night. How getting a fake iPhone for Christmas used to be the only things little kids ever wanted. Oh, little 8 year old me, the only thing I worried about back then was the dark, or going to a new school. How simple it all used to be. And now, it occurs to me that how a phone call in the middle of school right before lunch has changed my life completely. It's funny, you never know how the tiniest things make such an impact on your life. It was just one phone call where I answered my phone and asked 'hello?' Has changed me. Niall Horan has changed me an-and for a little bit I actually liked it. Until now, when reality hits you, and hits you hard. Look at me, and orphan now. Falling in love with the two most famous people on the face of earth, and liking it. And because I liked this, now look at me again. A ship sinking before my eyes, Niall with a bloody gash in his leg. Harry trying I revive Louis, Liam fighting a shark and paddling this stupid boat! Yes, I have the right to blame myself because who else would you blame? When I could of done something, I sat there and watched my parents die, I begged Niall to come with me on this ship that is now, surprise surprise, sinking! And it's all my fault! I wish I just had a normal life, where I lived in a small neighborhood with my best friend Mia. Where we liked to talk about boys we liked, where we liked to watch Pretty Little Liars or Mean Girls at 12:00 at night. Where Mia liked One Direction and....

I hated them.

I bloody hated them.

And I could care less about them.

I hated them.

Their music.

And Niall Horan.

They aren't the people at the bottom of the stairs, with Kevin. No not them. They are the people the come into your lives and will change them completely. They make your life so important sometimes, then other times they, sadly, make it stressful. But no, it was me that made their lives stressful, I came into it and never came out.

Ever.

Look. At me, those haters where so darn right. They said the truth and only the truth. They say those things so much that you start to believe it. But I don't believe it.

I know it.

I come into your life.

And look at what I do.

I just wish I could turn back time, even the times before I meet Niall or Louis. And you know why? I'll tell you why.

Because I want a normal life again.

I don't want to beg to have to be normal, but I guess you'll see me in the next People magazine, and I'll tell you what it says.

'19 year old Nicole Harper goes on a ship to London, she says she is doing it because she wants to save her sister. She has brung the members of One Direction with her as well, taking them out of their US tour. But look! This ship is sinking! With One Direction on it! Looks like the boys are in trouble!'