Sophie's diary (under construction)

3.9.2012.-7.9.2012. "Call me Meg."

A/N: I want to thank @serene_ once again for making my lovely cover. 

This chapter is dedicated to her :) 

Also, I've edited first and second chapter. I didn't make any drastic changes that would influence the story. I just re wrote some sentences.

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3.9.2012..,8pm 

Dear diary,

Mother was..very excited after I've told her what had happened today. 

She couldn't stop blabbing about her daughter finally coming out of her shell and becoming a social butterfly. No matter how hard I protested to that and tried to explain that I won't become friends with The Populars she wouldn't stop gushing about it. So eventually I gave up and went to my room.

I was exhausted. Today was just too much for me.

And to think all of this happened because I parked next to Meg Richards.

4.9.2012., 12:20 pm

I'm freaking out! 

 I thought that today everybody would forget about the Cadillac girl. I even parked on the complete opposite side of Meg Richards! But when I entered the school people started whispering. My name left every mouth in the hallway. They were all wondering who am I. I was surprised when I heard a group of kids who recognized me from a class we had together. I always sat in the back of the class and I never really participated in class. 

Even teachers heard about yesterday's events. They started paying attention to me.

I feel like everybody is staring at me when I walk past them so that's why I said to my history teacher I'm not feeling well so I can leave class early (yes, I'm actually missing history).

I needed some time alone. I started to feel like I can't breathe in the classroom even though I am sitting next to a window (and it was open). Now I'm hiding in the girls' bathroom trying to collect myself. Class ends in about five minutes and then it's lunch. I cannot explain how nervous I am because of it. What if Meg Richards asks me to sit with The Populars again? I can't say no to her. 

Hopefully she won't notice me so that I can sit with Melissa and Paul (who are not showing any sympathy for my situation). Urghh, this is so frustrating.

I wish to be invisible again. 

4.9.2012., 10pm 

I'm becoming one of them.

At least whole school thinks that. I even heard someone whispering that if I continue to raise the social ladder I might be voted homecoming queen. No. Just no!

I sat with The Populars during lunch again with Paul. Melissa got detention because she spilled paint on Will (a guy she likes since 7th grade) in art class. But her plan did work, he certainly did notice her and asked for her number. Boys are weird. I mean why would you ask for someone's number after they (purposely) spilled paint all over your clothes.

Paul mostly talked with Lucas and Eric so Leah and Meg Richards focused on me. Yay!

They wanted to know everything about me. And I mean everything: from my birthday and likes and dislikes, to what's my blood type.  

 Most of my answers were short and I stuttered a lot. I was silently panicking the whole time just waiting for them to start laughing at my awkwardness but they thought I was (and I quote): "So adorably awkward. Just like a lost puppy."

Seriously, a puppy? I would understand if they said a whale or an elephant because they are pretty awkward but not a puppy. I don't even like puppies! 

5.9.2012., 2am

Can't sleep.

I'm afraid to go to school tomorrow. Everyone is talking about me now. 

Meg Richards invited me to go on a picnic with her and her brother this Sunday. I have to give her an answer tomorrow. Mother is thrilled about it. She practically made me go. I understand she wants for me, her only daughter, to have lots of friends but she doesn't understand that I don't fit in. 

I'm just too awkward and shy. 

p.s. I still haven't asked Melissa and Paul about Leah's party. I need to think of an excuse to not go.

7.9.2012., 8pm

I think Louise doesn't like me too much. She's always quiet when I'm around (which is a lot now) and she looks at me strangely. I can't figure her out yet.

Someone told The Populars that I call Meg Richards by her full name. I was extremely embarrassed about that but Meg Richards just laughed and said: "Call me Meg."

My jaw dropped. I'm on first name bases with Meg Richards. No, way.

Oh, I excepted her picnic offer. She seemed excited which I was glad. I think I'm starting to warm up to her. 

Paul and Melissa didn't want to hear my excuses why I shouldn't go to Leah's party on Saturday. 

I really don't understand how they didn't take my excuses under consideration. They were really good. For example, I've told them I have to go visit my dad (he lives in New York) or that I need to go to a funeral but they said no!

How could they say no to funeral!

7.9.2012., 9pm

Mother overheard (eavesdropped) my conversation with Melissa about they party. 

I spent last half an hour trying to calm her down and promising her that I won't do anything stupid (not that she was concerned about that). 

7.9.2012., 11pm

Meg Richards (there's no way I'll call her just Meg) just texted me. Yes, Meg Richards texted me. 

It shouldn't have surprised me that much because we've been hanging out this whole week and she invited me to the picnic but it still seemed unreal.  

Anyway, she texted: "Tim is coming to the party tomorrow. Can't wait for you two to meet! :)"

I am grateful that she uses proper words in texts, those idiotic abbreviations are annoying. I mean how is "omg, c u @ school" better than actually writing the sentence. 

Anyway, Tim is her brother. What I've heard about him from Melissa is that he goes to a fancy private school, he's a senior and very charming (if you know what I mean). 

I don't think him and I will get along but I will try because Meg Richards has been nothing but nice to me so far. 

7.9.2012., 3am

Damn my amazing over thinking skills!

For the past three hours I've been going through all scenarios what go could wrong at the party.

Leah's parties are well known as being legendary. That means lots of people, boys and alcohol. Things I do not have (nor I want to) have many experience with. How am I supposed to dress?

Leah said dressy but casual. Like I know what that means.

Melissa and Paul are excited about my first party more than I am. (because I am not. At all.)

Their answer to all of my complaints is you'll survive. Yea, right.

I would rather face You-Know-Who than go to the party.

But If I survive tomorrow I will make Melissa and Paul call me: Sophie Kidd, the girl who lived.

Mental note: Call Melissa first thing in the morning for a quick lesson on parties.

Another mental note: Do not make Harry Potter references in front of anyone at the party.