Felix's P.O.V.
I have no idea what to do. I could do find this Skie girl, but I have no idea what will happen. What if she doesn't believe me? Anderson always uses my name so she might just think i'm fucking crazy. I've talked to him before..In my head, that's how I know his name is Anderson. God damn, I am crazy. I'm fucking talking to myself. What if Anderson surfaces while I'm near her. She could get seriously hurt or worse! I decided I'd go back to out into the motel room and see what I could find.
When I walked out there was someone sitting in the small kitchenette area, sipping what looks to be coffee. "Hey Felix! Sleep good?", he called to me. I looked at him for a bit and I must've had a confused face because he asked, "dude, are you doing okay??". I walked over to him and sat in the chair across from him and rubbed my temples. "Alright," I sighed then began talking again, "I have no idea who you are, and this is going to sound so so crazy. My name is Felix, which you know, and I have multiple personality disorder. I have no idea who the bloody hell Skie is or where the hell I am. But from reading this notebook," I held it up, "She's in danger of my other personality. Anderson Michaels is his name. I'm assuming he brought you here for whatever reason?" Whoever this guy is got up and paced back and forth for a bit before stopping in front of me and putting out his hand, "Alrighty..Well my name's Matty. I'm one of Skie's old friends and we were out here because yo- or Anderson I guess, wanted to go visit her? I never knew he wanted to hurt her though."
"Well, I guess why don't we go visit Skie then? She lives with her fiancee, his name's Grayson. Maybe we can go sort this whole thing out and figure out what the fuck is going on? Shed a little light on what Anderson did or what happened between them to make him want to hurt her.", he said while throwing on a jacket and some converse. "Okay, but you NEED to watch me. I can't control when or if he'll come back and I won't be able to stop it. If I try to hurt anyone at all, you need to take me down or some shit. I'm so sorry to pour all this on you.", I gushed. We grabbed the room key and walked out and got on our way to see "Skielynn".
After about a 20 minute drive we had finally arrived at "Skielynn & Grayson's house" and I can't lie, I'm nervous as all hell. I don't know what to do or say, nothing I could possibly say could make up for what I- uh, Anderson, had done to Skie. I don't have a single memory of her or anything that Anderson did to her. Matty was staring at me and I guess I should stop talking to myself and get out of the car. I opened the passenger door and stepped out and looked at Matty and gulped. We both started up the front steps to a cute little flat and rung the doorbell. After a few seconds a man opened up the door and his eyes instantly widened when he saw Matty. "Dude! It's been so long, holy shit what's been up with you?!", he said rather quickly and pulled him into a bro hug kind of thing. They pulled apart and we all walked inside, I still have yet to utter a word since we left the motel and I feel so anxious and weird about being here. We we're all sitting on the couch, Grayson still hasn't taken notice in my presence.
Not too long after we had sat down a beautiful girl walked down the stairs that lead right into the living room she was tugging at the bottom of her shirt, she appears to be pregnant, "Gray, have you seen my black pullover hoodie? I looked everywhere upstairs and I-", she suddenly stopped and stared at me, her eyes filled with terror. i quickly stood up but didn't move. Grayson ran over to her and held her face in his hands trying to figure out what was wrong. "What- What the hell is he doing in our house, Grayson?! W-why would you let him in here! That's fucking Felix-wha- how did you find me!", she yelled, her voice shaking. Grayson's head snapped in my direction and strode over to me and grabbed me by my shirt collar. "What the fuck do you think you'r-", before he could continue, Matty pulled him off of me. Tears threatening to fall from my eyes.
"Matty! What the fuck are you doing! He's psychotic! He tried to kill Skie, he got her fucking pregn-", I cut him off before he could continue. "Please let me..let me just explain. That wasn't me, none of it, I-i'm so sorry for letting it get this bad. I couldn't..I couldn't control him!", I managed to get out. Grayson was still glaring at me, he pushed Matty off of him and went back to Skielynn and held her close to him, trying to console her. "Please..Just let me explain, Uhm..Sk-Skielynn?" I backed away as not to aggravate the situation any further. She moved her hands away from her face just barely so she could look at me. "Skie, Gray. Just give him a chance, please? I know this all seems crazy, and I would never intentionally be out to hurt either of you, nor the baby.", Matty said trying to convince them to just let me talk. "Fine, sit the fuck down. Over there," he pointed at a couch farthest away from them, "And if I or Skie should feel threatened or decide you should be leaving, you best not pose a problem or I'll remove you myself." I nodded slightly and sat on one side of the room while they sat on the other. Matty walked over and sat next to me and put a hand on my knee as encouragement. I looked at him out of the corner of my eye and gave a nervous smile and placed my hand over his before I began to speak.
"I can't apologize enough..I-I'm not who you think I am, kinda. My name is infact Felix, but the person you knew it Anderson..I have multiple personality disorder and I can't control it bec-", "Don't they have shit you can take for that so you don't go fucking abusive psychopath?!", Grayson cut me off. I looked at the ground, "Yes..but uh..If i take the medication for it, it makes me suicidal, I've tried to kill myself so many times, I..I didn't know what to do, so I just stopped taking them, and when Anderson takes over, it seems he just keeps ruining my life and hurting so many people, but I can't just stop him. He's so strong-", i wiped the tears from my eyes and continued speaking, "I know i probably sound like a liar and an asshole, but it's all here in this notebook. I can't remember anything I-Anderson has done. I blackout and he takes over my entire body. Skielynn..I'm so sorry for everything, I can't apologize enough for the shit you had to put up with, you don't need to forgive me, I don't expect it at all. But i wanted to explain everything to you..So you could finally know everything. I have no recollection of you at all Skielynn, but I felt as though I had to talk to you."
We all sat silently for a moment and no one dared to look at me other than Matty who gave me a supportive sad smile and squeezed my thigh gently. I stood up and straightened out my shirt and started walking back to the front door. I looked back one more time, "I'm sorry again..If it isn't too much to ask, since you said that baby in mine..or..uh..Anderson's, may i please see a picture or something when he or she is born? I'm sorry for the random visit.", i opened the door and stepped out and shut it. I walked down the front stair and sat on the curb waiting patiently for Matty to come out. I lit up a cigarette and inhaled deeply, thinking over everything I had just said to those people.
Seeing the look on Skielynn's face when she saw me absolutely broke my heart. How i could possibly be such a heartless monster to someone so lovely and fraile, I really don't know. I took another drag of my cigarette and I heard someone open the door shuffle out and sit on the same step as me,but not too close. It was silent for a bit and I was still looking down at the ground. "I um..Here. This is an ultrasound of the baby..", I looked up and saw Skielynn holding out a black and white photo. I gently took it from her and looked at, tears formed in my eyes as I looked at it, I didn't know what to say. "You can keep it, and um..When the baby is born in a few months..maybe you could come to the hospital? But..I uh..I want to make sure you're doing o-okay before I give a final okay if you can come or not..Grayson isn't too happy about you being here, or coming to the hospital when the baby is born, but he's going to try to be okay with it.", Skie said.
I didn't really know what to say. I thought she would want me gone right after that all..
